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He gives Kelson a rueful look.

"I can't say much else on its achievements. The church left a power vacuum, the rebel leaders and the noble families have been in a tense truce for years now."

But, it is still better than the way things had been during his earlier years.

There are also some gaps in his knowledge.

"Do you hold faith," he asks, genuinely curious.

That also sounded familiar. "I may have filled that hole with my own chosen. But yes, for a number of years there were a tense....I wouldn't call it a truce. More like waiting. Biding time. Neither one of us wanted to live with the other. I suppose they just made mistakes first?"

Did he hold faith. What a loaded question that was. "I guess the answer depends on what you mean by faith. Do I told faith with everything the Church has taught? With the people who control the Church? No. Do I hold faith in my own interpretation of deity and God? Yes. I can't say all my church leaders have always understood, but at least now, most of them at least respect it. Do you?"

At the answer, he smiles faintly.

"I have faith in my god, in all his forms."

Parfir. The Rifter. John.

"I was raised by men of the church, trained in their ideals. But all men are fallible. It took me many years to understand."

They make of faith what they wish. It is the same here. The King of Thorne speaks pretty words, and Kahlil believes he has the best interests of his nation at heart - but the power of the Singularity is not something to be controlled by men.

"You are wise enough to have figured it out yourself. I had to have the concept explained to me, when the luxury of learning it on my own could no longer be afforded."

He paused, thinking things through, before the question he wanted to pose was suitably formed. " And what of our situation here? Do you believe that is also up to god or have others interfered in what is best left alone?" Kelson didn't know what to think, although he was interested in knowledge, the idea of something like the Singularity seemed too powerful. At least with the current, rather poor, state of affairs.

He laughs with a harder edge this time.

"I wouldn't call myself wise." The learning nearly killed him. Kelson is still young and adaptable, which is in his favor. Kahlil doesn't begrudge him.

There's a pause while he sips his tea, the temperature no longer unbearable. When he answers the question, his brow furrows.

"I believe it's both, whether it's the side seeking its power - or the side seeking freedom from it. The potential for destruction is too great."

He doesn't want to see this world become like Basawar. Worse, he doesn't want to see what might happen to all the universes connected to the Singularity, should either side get what they desire.

"What would you call yourself then?" Wisdom comes from learning and adapting. It seemed to Kelson that Kyle had both learned, and not died doing it. He'd call that wisdom. At least he didn't have to be told and was able to figure it out himself.

Kelson likewise blew on his tea, taking a careful sip before setting it down again. "And so, we're stuck. Trying to mitigate already poor circumstances. But you seen to have navigated them well. You've developed a sort of....life here despite everything. "

To the question he only shrugs. Lucky, maybe - although most luck is just another thing he ascribes to Parfir's will.

"The people that seem to fit in best here are usually the ones who don't care so much about returning home," he says with a wry smile on his lips.

It's easier when your attention isn't divided. This land has become something like a home for him, that much is true. He has people here. He has his mission. It's as close to a life as he's ever gotten, except for that brief, dream-like year he spent sharing that house with John.

"You seem to have a lot waiting for you back in your world, though."

Kelson gave the man a weak smile. "I suppose I shouldn't be shocked that my unhappiness here is completely obvious." He hadn't exactly been hiding it after all. This wasn't after all where he wanted to be. Like Kyle had said, he had things he needed to do. Things that did not involve being here in Thorne.

He took a sip of his tea, finally deeming it cool enough. "I'm sure it's easier to adapt when you're not constantly looking backwards at what you once had, or what you need to do. I do have a lot I want to accomplish. And had started to accomplish, finally, before I was Summoned here. As," he paused, trying to find the right word, "Privileged as I'm sure I should feel, it doesn't mitigate the circumstances. Although I've met some who seem to take this as a lovely vacation or new home. I'm not entirely sure I can do the same."

It would be easier if he did, if he accepted what was and put his own plan on pause until circumstances deemed him able to go back. But, that wasn't in Kelson's nature.

He shakes his head with a scoff.

"This world may be beautiful, but a vacation? I'm not sure for who."

Not for the Summoned. For as long as the factions exist, they will remain pawns. He thinks of Inej, her plans to forge a new home for them. A neutral faction. When she'd contacted him about the idea, he'd given her a very long list of all the reasons that it would never work.

Even so, he hoped she might prove him wrong. There are many here who deserve their freedom.

Anyway, he should probably get back to the current topic...

"There's two others who are also taking on this work. Wilhelm and Dion. Wilhelm's around your age, he's been here even longer than me. Dion is new."

"For people whose lives are so full of hardship they'll take this over going back home, that small glimmer of hope that there might be a way out, for some. Who would rather be pawns. But it's no matter. They can choose whatever they want. I certainly don't feel that way."

Kelson listens, taking in the information that Kyle is sharing. "Wilhelm I know, Dion I don't, but I can keep a look out."

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