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𝔈𝔡𝔡𝔦𝔢 𝔐𝔲𝔫𝔰𝔬𝔫 ([personal profile] satanicpanics) wrote in [community profile] abraxaslogs2024-01-15 11:05 pm

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Who: Eddie & River
When: January
Where: Nocwich
What: Questin’
Warnings: Corpses, maybe more TBA



[ Most of the jobs Eddie has been accepted here in Abraxas have been simple: toss a few fish back into the sea, cheer up some kids with some music—it’s always things he can complete in half a day without breaking too much of a sweat, and he’s happy to help. But this? This is a big job. An incredibly heavy, incredibly somber job.

Eddie would normally lean into the more comic side of his personality in cases like this, telling jokes to keep things light, but he doesn’t feel like that’s a particularly valid option here. He’s happy to joke at his own expense, about his own death, but this is different. The humor helps him cope, but unlike Eddie, these people died and are still dead. They aren’t even here to cope, so he makes a mental note to turn off the jokes until they figure out who these people were.

The more he dwells on it, the guiltier he feels about involving River in it as well. Ordinarily, he’d try to rope Steve in first, but Steve had actually been there on the island along with these people and still doesn’t seem to want to discuss whatever happened there. Afterward, he just happened to pick River at random considering how well they immediately seemed to get along. She’s so new, though, and when they meet up in Nocwich, Eddie vaguely wonders how much she actually knows about this entire thing.
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Hey, so, you weren’t here for the whole…island thing, were you? Anyone catch you up on what went down?
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[personal profile] thoughts 2024-02-04 04:01 am (UTC)(link)
[ she smiles warmly at how easily he listens and accepts. he's a good man and that trait will be an asset, especially for what they'll be doing next. river exhales lightly and turns back toward the morgue. ]

Yes. They were in the dark too. But we dug them out so they could feel the sun on their bones one last time.

[ that's what kyle said and it's stayed with her. still, she hesitates. ]

But it's not just bones. That's why I asked, how much you know. I want you to feel ready.

[ because she sure as fuck wasn't. ]

Do you close your eyes and dive right in, or do you want me to spoil the surprise?
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[personal profile] thoughts 2024-02-07 10:18 pm (UTC)(link)
[ normally river loves the silly faux-formalities and might offer him a curtsy in response. but the weight of what lies in the morgue hangs heavy over her head, drawing her back to the door with a look of fear and hesitation. he's not backing down, and neither is she. river swallows thickly and repeats: ]

Be brave, go slow. We can do this.

[ as they enter the building, there are a few people they need to talk to first to be directed where to go. river hears them but doesn't listen, the meaning of their words drowned out by the things that aren't being said out loud.

hopefully eddie is paying more attention, because as the mortuary surgeon leads them to the section they'll be sorting through, river grows increasingly visibly anxious. her eyes are wide, darting all over as though seeing things beyond the walls that surround them, the overflow of grotesque bodies that this facility can barely manage to contain.

there's so much death here. so much violence and pain and sadness. all of it floods her mind and she winds up half a step behind eddie, head ducked slightly even as she pushes herself to move forward. when they stop at the entrance to the room they'll be working in, river doesn't say anything as grabs a small part of eddie's sleeve. just something to hold onto, an anchor of sorts, before they open the doors and see all the horror that lies within. ]
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[personal profile] thoughts 2024-02-09 12:32 am (UTC)(link)
[ the thing about memories is that they can cling to places and objects just as much as people. it's part of what made being in the pit so unbearable; not just the piles of partially decayed bodies, now laid out here in the morgue, but the agony that lingered in the air and the malice rooted deep in the soil. scraps of clothes and shoes and jewelry all held the last cries of their owners as they died in terrible ways.

when eddie places the ring in river's hand, a different type of memory comes to her. soft and warm, the gentle firelight of nocwich under a dark sky as he listened to the merchant's sales pitch. it wasn't as fanciful as eddie's already roughshod tale but it makes it that much sweeter, that he would give this to her as a good luck charm of sorts. 'the very essence of bravery.'

it's a little corny and she loves it. river eventually smiles, fraught though it may be, and clutches the ring close. ]


Xièxiè nǐ, Eddie. It works.

[ even if only because he said he would be here every step of the way, and he is. that helps. she can be brave. ]

Go slow, and take breaks. I promise not to throw up on your shoes.

[ pour one out for kyle who wasn't so lucky. river flashes another fleeting smile at eddie before putting the ring on each of her fingers until it lands on her thumb, the best fit between the different size of their hands. she rubs her other thumb over the stone several times, taking deep breaths and letting it ground her.

when she feels ready, she nods her head decisively and looks around the room. it's not just bones, she had said. some of the bodies are virtually goo with spongy bones, others have have growths and lesions and fungi across their desiccated flesh. the ones with roots disturb her the most, or those with small mouths full of thorny teeth that still look keen to devour.

she considers it all for a few minutes before turning away and wiping tears away from her face again. not great for the stomach, indeed. her voice comes small but earnest. ]


Where - where should we start?
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[personal profile] thoughts 2024-02-09 06:27 pm (UTC)(link)
[ eddie's understanding and patience with her is more significant than he might realize. the people that were there for her on the island took care of her when she needed it and she will be forever grateful. but it made her more aware of the fact that she's still a child, young and helpless when all she wanted to do was help. to use her powers for good instead of evil, the way she was designed to.

this is different. far less intense, as much it's still horrifying, further searing the vision of these ghastly bodies into her mind - but it feels manageable. eddie knows she's scared; he's scared too, she can feel it. and they're still pushing forward.

she feels capable. it's a rare feeling, when so often she just feels broken. eddie is grappling with his own complex emotions by being here, full of anxiety and dismay in various forms, but he's staying strong and helping her stay on her feet.

river doesn't want to let him down. she can do this. we can do this.

so without another word after hearing his explanation, river glances around the layout of the room and starts walking. passing by each of the bodies, eyes wide and head twitching as thought and emotions and memories overlap, tugging her in different directions. there are other people in the space, there to help move and arrange the bodies as they sort them or otherwise working on their own tasks, but river just steps around them and continues her scan of the room.

she worries at eddie's ring the whole time, and by the end of it, she's shivering a little with the energy that boils beneath her skin. but she thinks she has an idea of what they're doing. ]


Hair, nails, skin, clothes, jewelry. Type of injury, severity, potential hazards. The bones - the teeth.

[ all things they should be able to use to identify people, however imprecise. with that high level assessment, a way to rationalize the task at hand, river turns back to eddie to see what he thinks. ]

"Impossible" doesn't exist anymore. If magic is real - if magic can do this -

[ a brief look around the room before turning back to eddie ]

- everything counts. If you see something, you'll say? I - I will too.

[ it's very likely they'll see different things, even if only for the sake of river's third eye. ]
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[personal profile] thoughts 2024-02-13 12:56 am (UTC)(link)
[ even though she offered concrete things for them to look for, after her initial scan of the room, river ends up spending more time with each body individually seeing something else. the information is still there, catalogued to offer her assessment later on when they begin sorting properly, but more things come to her than just the lumps of flesh and bone that lay before them.

like the first body, whose sunken skull used to hold brown eyes and long brown hair before it melted away beneath the acidic creatures that kept them trapped in the pit. on the second, she sees the belts and buckles and buttons that seem typical of fashion in the free cities over the blistering wounds with thorny protrusions that leave her scratching feverishly at her arms. and the third body, when eddie points out the necklace -

the thing about memories is that they can cling to places and objects as much as people.

when she idly reaches out to touch the half of the pendant, river immediately screams and flinches away as though burned by it. she stumbles into the tables holding more bodies behind them, making quite the ruckus as she cries and stares at the body in horror. ]


Get it out, get it out! Not supposed to be there, it's not - they're supposed to be together, not here, not -

[ she shouts again as a phantom pain blooms in her shoulder and back, seeing and feeling the vines and thorns that tore through them as they clung to each other helplessly. she unintentionally knocks into eddie, unsteady on her feet as she begins to look around the room wildly. ]

Where is she? You have to get it out, they can't - they can't take her, they're supposed to be together!
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[personal profile] thoughts 2024-02-15 06:38 pm (UTC)(link)
[ physical touch can be hit or miss when river is in a state like this. she squirms away from eddie's hands, quietly whimpering 'no, no' - not because the touch is unwelcome but because it feels wrong. like blood slipping through fingertips as you cling to someone you love, all that pain, confusion, fear and despair. at the same time though, she ends up gripping his arms right back, holding on tight out of the same desperation that drove these two sisters to die in each other's arms.

it's all wrong. she tries to listen to what eddie is saying, but she hears screaming and crying too and only some of it is her own. so she shakes her head, holds on tight, and weeps. ]


It's not - we're not cool, Eddie. It's - dìyù shì kōng de, móguǐ jiù zài zhèlǐ, it hurts.

[ the memory is vivid and painful and sad, so terribly sad, the way all of the people here suffered as they laid rotting in the pit. river thinks of her brother and despairs for what it would've been like to be trapped so helplessly as their blood slipped through their fingers.

but eddie promised they would let them be together again, so river puts a hand over where he had drawn his x and looks up at him with a powerful desolation in her tearful eyes. ]


We have to get it out. Her face is gone. They couldn't see it in the dark but they could feel it. The roots, oh god, they're inside and outside and tearing me apart!

[ istredd said 'you need to protect your mind' but she isn't any better at it yet. they should probably take that break soon. she won't leave this room until they find the other sister though, her eyes darting around the room as she looks for one of the humanoid roots. ]
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[personal profile] thoughts 2024-02-17 09:09 am (UTC)(link)
[ this is exactly what happened on the island. so many volatile memories and emotions that her own thoughts were drowned out, unable to tell what was real or imaginary. the pain doesn't belong to her; she isn't hurting but it hurts, and the only way it can hurt less is if she learns to shut it out.

eddie says to look at him so she does, stares him in the eyes and tries to remember istredd's calming presence as she forces herself to take deep, steady breaths the way he had shown her. it takes a long moment and she holds tightly onto eddie's arms to stay on her feet as the rush of oxygen and adrenaline leaves her trembling.

be brave. go slow. wire him in. she's still staring as she speaks, seeing beyond him and trying to explain. ]


There's... there's two. This one was left waiting in the dark, waiting for her sister to come back but she came back wrong. Bones cracking, roots growing. From her back, and her face - where her face used to be. Clumps of red hair falling away. Can't make it stop, it's cutting into her too, can't get it out.

[ river stops with a gasp, still crying but not in the same frenzied panic as before. she's trying to channel all of that energy into eddie instead. he crossed his heart. can't make him into a liar. ]

People used to say they looked like twins. But now... I don't know if she's human anymore.

[ the observation doesn't really come from her, more like the last impressions of a dying woman trying to make sense of their grim fate. but river is hoping this helps eddie understand more about the state of the other body they're looking for, one so twisted and grotesque that it might be hard to identify as a former human, if not for the bits of auburn hair still stubbornly clinging to a misshapen skull. ]
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[personal profile] thoughts 2024-02-18 08:13 pm (UTC)(link)
[ a soft exhale leaves her when eddie finds a direction to move in, a sigh of relief she didn't know was caught in her throat. it's hard to make sense of the noise in her head. too many voices, too many images that overlap, clouded further by her narrow grasp on reality. but eddie listens and figures out the most important clues to follow, so as he starts moving around the room with purpose, river follows.

but she's much slower as they walk through the rows and rows of disfigured bodies, hearing their stories too in an overwhelming tide. her fingers rub across the stone in his ring almost obsessively, trying to stay grounded in the present moment and the task at hand.

when he stops and gestures to the horrifying creature that the woman's sister has become, despair drops into the pit of her stomach and she ends up on the edge of panic again. ]


No, no no no. It has to be here! They're always together, never far from each other.

[ the way she and simon had been inseparable once upon a time. maybe that's part of why she feels so bereft on behalf of these siblings. river gets far too close to the body, just shy of touching it with her bare hands, to look around for the pendant.

not finding it there, she turns instead to frantically looking around the other bodies and then starts digging in the box of things the attendants had collected to be tested in a lab later. one of them sees her and calls out 'hey!' since they weren't asked to help with sorting their belongings - but river ignores them entirely.

the necklace isn't here either. but it has to be somewhere. they're supposed to be together. river looks around one last time, eyes wide and searching, then doesn't turn back to eddie when she just leaves the room entirely to go look somewhere else. the morgue assistant turns to him with a disapproving look, probably expecting some kind of explanation. ]
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[personal profile] thoughts 2024-02-21 01:33 am (UTC)(link)
[ thankfully, it doesn't take long. if asked, river will never be able to explain how it is that she knew where to go. the information is just there - whether it's a memory or an emotion, if it's from the living or the dead, she really has no way to tell. but it calls out to her, a ringing that echoes through the noise in her head, so she follows the sound like a homing beacon.

down the hall, just a few rooms away, she finds another one filled with more boxes than bodies, an assorted collection of items retrieved from the island. she knows there are people in the room that are speaking to her, knows eddie followed after her and hears laughter in the hall, but it's all background noise. static fuzz cut through by a ringing that gets louder as she moves from the first box to a second and a third.

it all stops when her fingers finally find what her mind was reaching for; a sudden silence deafens her to the rest of the world as she pulls a necklace out of the box. the string snapped from a neck that grew to the width of a tree trunk but the bone charm is still there, beautifully carved to fit one half of a pair.

they're both caked with dirt and gore now, but at least they won't be alone.

river stares at the pendant for a moment longer before clutching it to her chest, letting the rest of the noise flood back in as she turns around. she notices the room's attendants first and gives them a quick bow in silent apology, then runs to eddie's side and tugs on his sleeve. ]


Eddie. Time to go home now.

[ not for them, at least not yet. but for these nameless sisters who lost themselves in the dark, they can help them be on their way. together, the way they're supposed to be.

although, now that she's next to him, the morgue assistant's forced laughter is much harder to ignore. river eyes him curiously and then blinks at eddie. she seems more focused than before, most of the distress simmered away now that she holds the missing puzzle piece. ]


Is he okay? Did you break him?
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[personal profile] thoughts 2024-02-23 01:23 am (UTC)(link)
[ river almost laughs as they head back to the room like misbehaving children fleeing the scene of a crime. eddie's antics are as entertaining as the first time they met. she imagines the assistant won't be very happy with them, nor any of the other morgue staff that watched her enter a room unauthorized and take something.

but this is important to her. and as much as her overall demeanor has improved, the voices are still there in her head. the pressure is just less intense now that this one knot has been unraveled. ]


Sometimes lost things want to be found.

[ it's the best explanation she can offer. river bypasses the humanoid plant entirely to go back to the other body. ]

She wanted it back. The sister. Felt it slipping.l and wanted to give it back, hoping maybe she would escape and take a piece of her back home.

[ but they died together instead. river places the pendant on the body so the bone charm rests next to its other half. together again and irrevocably separated.

not a moment later, the morgue assistant storms right up to them, red in the face ( from laughter or anger or both ) as he demands to know what they were doing. river tucks herself halfway behind eddie, head ducked sheepishly as she says: ]


Duìbùqǐ, bié shēngqì. She won't touch anymore, I promise.

[ it's probably better that way, honestly. things only boiled over after touching the pendant. maybe they can take a break and try again? if they'll let them, that is... ]
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[personal profile] thoughts 2024-02-28 12:24 pm (UTC)(link)
[ it takes a moment for river to realize eddie is covering for her. she didn't ask him to - didn't even think of it, really, but she's grateful. so when the assistant skeptically asks how they could possibly know they were sisters with the state of their bodies, she decides to lean into it.

maybe a little harder than eddie, though; her voice doesn't change in pitch, still contrite and thick with emotion as she stares at the body and outright lies. ]


They were neighbors. Saw them all the time in the Primary Settlement. They liked to set up at the same booth in the market, next to a plot of flowers and downwind from the bakery.

[ never mind that she's never been to solvunn. if he pays close enough attention, eddie might recognize the description - from the last time he was at the market himself. she isn't reading their memories but his, weaving the story of a life that never was based on what he knows and selling it as the honest truth.

she sounds fond, wistful, and devastated, the way anyone might witnessing the gruesome end of their "friends." ]


Their family was so sad when they were taken. Oh god, what are we going to tell them now?

[ she turns into eddie, hiding her face against him as she quietly sobs. the morgue staff seem to shrug it off at that point; they've seen enough emotional breakdowns over these horrible deaths already. they don't have the time to be moved, so the assistant just tells them not to go out of bounds of their assignment again, or else they'll be asked to leave.

river doesn't respond beyond a nod as she continues to cry. it's only once she's certain they're gone that she pulls away from eddie, her eyes red but dry as she smiles at him like all is well in the world. ]


Ràoguò tiān kēng, that was close. Thank you.