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Jaskier "old-timey fuckboy" Alfred Pankratz ([personal profile] cointosser) wrote in [community profile] abraxaslogs2021-10-01 09:35 pm

[ CLOSED ] when I'm like this, you're the one I trust

Who: Jaskier, Ciri, Geralt, eventually Sam?
When: First week of October
Where: The desert outskirts of Cadens
What: Jaskier attempts to help Ciri learn magic with disastrous results.
Warnings: Bodily injury, may move to mild body horror depending.



[With the climate they found themselves in, it only made sense for them to really embrace their new... eccentric talents. At least, that was what Jaskier tells himself, and when he tells himself it -- regarding Ciri, in particular -- it all makes sense, of course. If they are all gifted with magic, then it only makes sense to make use of it.

After all, it's free. And they need skills to make a living off of. As far as he understands, Ciri is, er, well. Like Geralt. A hunter.

Magic, hunting. It all fits together.

Okay, fine. He's terribly bored also. And he's tired of being the only one with magic around here. (He's still avoiding the whole plant thing. He prefers not to think about it, actually.]


All right, my dear. I -- well, I don't claim to know many, er, spells, but we can start on what I started on. Simply a little bird. [He, of course, adds a completely unnecessary flourish to his movements, and a bit of sparks, holding out his hand with a dove sitting on his palm.]

It's a bit hard to describe. I sort of... imitated watching it, I suppose.

[He sort of definitely wants to see Ciri try to imitate his flourish.]
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[personal profile] gynvael 2021-10-20 12:14 am (UTC)(link)
[ As soon as he hears Jaskier awake, Geralt goes to see him. His head is still fuzzy, his strength not all there, but he's mostly recovered. He still needs to talk to Ciri, but he wants to see Jaskier first before he does. He thinks Ciri needs a bit of space, anyhow.

Geralt steps into the room without announcing himself. His hair's only half-heartedly swept up, though he does, to his credit (and Sam's) look as if he's gotten sleep and eaten more than a few bites. ]


I imagine he'll regret his insistence soon. [ Because a Witcher's appetite is not small, and especially not so while healing. Geralt figures he'll hunt Sam a deer later to repay him. In the meantime, he settles against the wall beside Jaskier's bed. He's got something in his hands: the lute inside its case, which had been put aside during all this.

His gaze lingers on the scar as he sets the lute next to Jaskier. The bruises on his throat. (He wants to say at least it wasn't his voice this time, but Jaskier needs his hands equally as much.) ]
Decided on which thrilling monster gave you that scar yet?
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[personal profile] gynvael 2021-10-20 01:20 am (UTC)(link)
[ As expected. Jaskier may love freely, but nothing truly holds his heart the same way his lute does. Geralt's lips quirk upwards at the corner, even if it doesn't entirely reach his eyes. It's just. A lot on his mind. One thing after another. ]

Try a small weasel, if believability is your concern.

[ He lifts his eyes from the scar to the plate Jaskier pushes his direction. The concept of a sandwich is new to him, but it's one he's embraced for its practicality. He takes one of the halves without hesitating, long used to eating what Jaskier won't have or won't finish.

A line of tension tightens his shoulders. He sighs. Ciri is...he'd succeeded in distracting her for the night. Easing some of her worries. But he knows it's temporary, that she needs guidance she can trust in, and Geralt hasn't got any way of reaching Yennefer. Not without provoking suspicion from those undoubtedly always on edge in Thorne.

He's quiet when he answers. ]
She's afraid.
Edited 2021-10-20 01:25 (UTC)
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[personal profile] gynvael 2021-10-20 03:03 am (UTC)(link)
[ No. Not of Jaskier. Geralt takes a bite of his own, and despite the sizeable half, about a third of it disappears immediately. He clearly isn't in the mood to enjoy the food (it's good; Sam can cook) but Geralt has long learned the art of eating for wholly necessary reasons so he chews it all the same.

Jaskier's remark turns his expression sharp. His eyes cut towards the bard. Yeah. He has trained her. To slay monsters, wield a sword. She needs more than that. It must be the reason how she knows Yennefer, how they're close, and yet. He's realizing if that's true, if Ciri has spent time with Yennefer and is still so unsure of her magic, it means her power is...a hell of a lot more than Geralt imagined. ]


The Singularity affects those with their own power...differently. I can't access any of the magic you have, either.

[ He truthfully isn't trying to hide it from Jaskier, what Ciri is capable of—not that he knows much about it in the first place. More that he's been wanting Ciri to do it on her own time, when she's ready. It's not his secret to tell, not even to Jaskier. He pauses. ]

You should talk to her. She'll want to hear from you you're all right.
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[personal profile] gynvael 2021-10-20 05:11 am (UTC)(link)
[ His expression is unreadable, on the surface, though Jaskier probably knows him well enough to understand Geralt is torn over something. Namely, that he isn't certain how much more he wants to say without Ciri here. There's one thing Geralt has always been sure of when it comes to Ciri and it's to let her make her own choices. But it also isn't his wish to shut Jaskier out. Especially not now when Jaskier's been invariably caught in its crossfire. ]

We thought this world simply prevented her from using any of it. [ His voice is firm, and underneath that, seeking an understanding. Not that he believes Jaskier would think he deliberately left him in the dark about what could be so fucking dangerous. (He still feels responsible, despite that.)

He exhales. Fuck. Every day that passes, more of his edges begin to fray, and at this point, it feels as if he's doing everything he can to keep it all from bursting at the seams. This. Jaskier, with his newfound powers, so much of Ciri that he still can't understand, and a world outside that's determined to swallow everyone up in its obsession with the Singularity's power. The truth is, Geralt has largely gone without much concern over Jaskier back on the Continent. Sometimes, of course, when Jaskier followed him on a hunt. Rare moments where unexpected danger came. But for the most part, Jaskier has always taken care of himself with little trouble. It's only now that there is an unshakable pressure, a mounting dread that whatever is coming, he'll fail to protect those most important to him. ]


I'm sure. [ There's more he's getting from Jaskier, from the way he's reacting, that he can't place his finger on. He studies his friend for a moment before letting it go. Geralt has things he's not told Jaskier, but he's never lied to him outright and now is no different. Ciri was not alone in her decision to keep silent. He has little desire to leave Jaskier believing otherwise. ] She needed time to decide how to tell you. I told her to wait until she was ready.
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[personal profile] gynvael 2021-10-20 06:10 am (UTC)(link)
[ Jaskier's hand around his makes him blink. Part of him relaxes, a hint. He's tired. That's all. Tired and he'd been inches away from losing Jaskier and shit, his arm. It's healed now, but all of it feels too close. A razor's edge from spinning out of control. Perhaps it says something that Geralt does not pull out of Jaskier's grasp. He thinks, briefly, of Jaskier lazily leaning in to kiss him over a bottle of wine and wonders if Jaskier realizes just how rare those moments of careless simplicity are to him.

He accepts the promise, wordless. He's worried for Ciri, too. Wishes he knew more, that he could do more.

Quietly, he bundles up his concerns, puts them aside. Jaskier is alive. In the end, that's the most important part. ]


What happened to finding the topic of horses unattractive? [ His eyebrow lifts. Roach is perfectly content. Grazing in her stables, treated to an apple. Couldn't be better. He'd ridden far, but. Hell, he'll ride as far as he needs to for Jaskier. That's never in doubt in his mind.

And perhaps he's avoiding the question of how he's doing, though after a second, Geralt returns to it. He is fine, physically, but he knows that's not exactly what Jaskier is asking after. Despite himself, he admits, ]
I could use a drink or three.
Edited 2021-10-20 06:17 (UTC)
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[personal profile] gynvael 2021-10-21 01:58 am (UTC)(link)
[ Yeah. He remembers. Geralt has not let himself dwell on the fact that he'd been drinking enough for his memories to be fuzzy and yet they'd not been. He remembers that day, that night, with perfect clarity. He hasn't let himself dwell on it because he knows, deep down, what it means: that he wants to remember. That those moments, with Jaskier, with Ciri, were important to him. Still are.

He sits back, devouring the rest of the sandwich. It's good, seeing Jaskier eating. Looking brighter, more alert. Talking about needing a drink. Don't they all?

His expression softens at the edges. It needn't be said. It's not about gratitude between him and Jaskier. Only the simple fact that Geralt would prefer to not have Jaskier leave this world yet. ]


Just don't do it again. [ The remark is wry. ] You aren't allowed more scars than me.
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[personal profile] gynvael 2021-10-21 05:12 am (UTC)(link)
[ A snort comes from his throat. Is that what Jaskier is calling it? Him fucking up? (There's truth to that. Most of his scars tell of some mistake or another.)

It's been some time, actually, that Geralt has openly denied they're friends. Maybe he should start again. Tradition's sake. He doesn't right now, though he does roll his eyes. A shadow flickers beneath, easy to miss but there. The sense that Jaskier's casual teasing has touched on a deeper thread. ]


I'm not a knight.

[ You'd make a shitty one, refusing to slay dragons. He pushes the words out of his mind. Feels like lifetimes ago, that conversation on the mountain. He thinks about it sometimes. If the egg hatched. If it survived.

If the gold dragon is still out there, alone. ]


I suppose it's only fitting you're the first princess to be hauled upon an ass.
Edited 2021-10-21 05:20 (UTC)
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[personal profile] gynvael 2021-10-21 04:52 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Jaskier gets a look in return. It isn't sarcasm, Geralt knows, and it isn't the first time Jaskier has said something of the sort. Geralt's simply always treated it as a dry teasing comment, typical of the bard. To consider the sincerity behind it leaves him too uneasy, too out of place. Rather not go there at all.

He's not a knight. Or anything in particular. He's just a Witcher. With an annoyance for a companion. (Friend.) ]


Hey. Roach understands when you've insulted her. [ Geralt sounds more offended on his horse's behalf than he ever does defending himself. He's passing Jaskier a cup of water nonetheless. The marks around his throat stand out starkly against Jaskier's pale skin. ] Don't whinge when she bites.

[ He makes no comment about the stiffness in some of Jaskier's movements or the roughness in his voice, just takes a seat on the mattress, moving the plate of food and book to the side to make room. Geralt can't keep stealing Sam's makeshift bed on the couch for his own rest. He'll steal Jaskier's half of the bed instead. He's quiet while he settles; quiet after he settles. Geralt's company does not often come with extended chatter. But it is company and he knows Jaskier could use some of it. ]
Edited 2021-10-21 16:57 (UTC)
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[personal profile] gynvael 2021-10-22 04:15 am (UTC)(link)
[ Uh-huh. Geralt doesn't argue because it isn't the point. (He knows Jaskier is laughing, and perhaps that's worthwhile enough on its own.) He ignores Jaskier's exasperated gestures, though in Geralt's defence, he's got one foot off the bed just so Jaskier isn't shoved right off the other side.

He leans back against the pillows. Is he? No. Not escape. Just to give Sam some room. They've invaded his damn home, after all. As hospitable as Sam is, Geralt thinks it still must be a headache. Especially when Sam's got his own shit going on. Someone missing altogether. Someone Geralt still hasn't got any idea what the fuck happened to. ]


He's only that way with you. You absorb it like a crusty bread in soup.

[ The attention, Geralt means, which he isn't saying just to poke fun. Rather, it's that Sam is different with Jaskier than he is with Geralt. Because Sam was overbearing, at first. And then, surprisingly, he wasn't. Geralt is not so oblivious that he doesn't realize it's simply because the man made an effort to step back with the Witcher in particular. There's something to be said about that even if he's refusing to ruminate upon it. About how he feels. Jaskier might've sensed it regardless; Geralt would've normally left the moment Jaskier was capable of moving. Taken the bard and Ciri home. If it were anyone but Sam, he'd have never placed them in the hands of another while he was still not entirely at full strength.

But he's here. Accepting the...help. ]
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[personal profile] gynvael 2021-10-22 05:33 pm (UTC)(link)
[ The sound that comes from Geralt's chest is close to a laugh. He looks away before too much can be read on his face. (Not a lot at all, to anyone else, but Jaskier knows him far too well.)

He shifts over a hint for Jaskier to lay down, tucks one arm behind his head. Another day of proper sleep, he'll be back to normal. It's possible the whole thing took more out of him then he'd anticipated. This was different. His injuries were usually tangible: an ache or pain he can pinpoint. This time, he was simply worn down, all of his body sluggish.

It's funny. On occasion he thinks about that. How Sam doesn't entirely know him, and if Geralt might ward him off if he did know everything. Geralt hasn't dwelled on it, exactly, but—its a reality that exists, that's all. Perhaps it isn't important for now. And either way, he does trust Sam regardless. As rare as that is for him.

(He does, maybe, want company from an old friend, deep down in a place he'll not ever acknowledge.) ]
Didn't work as well on you as I'd always wanted.
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[personal profile] gynvael 2021-10-23 05:13 am (UTC)(link)
[ Geralt glances sidelong at Jaskier. He huffs. In all honesty, Geralt only thinks of their first meeting on rare occasions. (Jaskier had been young, bright-eyed, and over the years, not one bit of that's changed.) Not that it isn't of any significance; it's only that it's not ever been any one thing with Jaskier, any one point where Jaskier migrated from annoying little shit to friend.

And back to a fucking nuisance. He makes a face, swatting Jaskier's hand away. ]
Fuck off.

[ He sighs. Thrice as annoying is more like it. And yet, he's still here, lingering at Jaskier's bedside when Jaskier is, for the most part, doing all right and sure as hell hasn't got a need for someone keeping an eye on him. For which he's glad. He isn't sure what he'd have done if—

Something more, something worse, had happened. If he'd been even further out in the desert, if Ciri hadn't found him in time.

He lets the silence lapse between them, or otherwise lets Jaskier fill it as the bard wishes without much commentary on his part. Only after a few minutes does he speak up again, with one thing he'd meant to tell Jaskier and hadn't had the chance to. ]


I spoke to someone who developed magic like yours. An ability out of nowhere, after leaving Thorne.
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[personal profile] gynvael 2021-10-24 02:03 am (UTC)(link)
Amos. Just a human. [ Very human. Supposedly without a lick of magic or monsters in his world. Jaskier is unlikely to know him; the man had been quiet in the dungeons, and mostly out of sight, but he finds it interesting it occurred only after Thorne.

Or during the chaos? He looks over, curious. Estinien, too, was it? Hm. He considers asking more, but Jaskier looks tired as fuck and his only intention had been perhaps, to let Jaskier know that he isn't alone in this strange occurrence. He lets it be. It isn't long before Jaskier's breathing begins to steady and deepen. Once he's certain Jaskier won't wake, he silently slips off the bed. The bard sleeps like a rock, anyhow.

He lingers for a second, watching. (It'd been far too fucking close. All of this.) Then he leaves, to see if he can find either Sam or Ciri. Maybe find something he can do while they've taken over Sam's home. ]
Edited 2021-10-24 02:08 (UTC)