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open | excuse my ego, can't go incognito
Who: annabeth chase + perhaps you!
When: post emergence event, mid may into mid june
Where: thorne, the horizon, nocwich
What: post event stuff & catch all
Warnings: none right now! will add if/as needed!

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When: post emergence event, mid may into mid june
Where: thorne, the horizon, nocwich
What: post event stuff & catch all
Warnings: none right now! will add if/as needed!

[ open & closed starters in the comments! feel free to reach out
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There's a pregnant pause when Claire isn't sure what to expect. She suspects Annabeth hasn't had much loving, patient parenting; she wasn't always there for Bree when she needed her mother, and Claire can never change how much she wishes she had been there, not escaping to school or the hospital when her sense of loss and grief threatened to overwhelm her. She can do better now, and she will. She hopes she already has.
Reaching out tentatively, she gently squeezes Annabeth's hand. ]
I'm sorry if anyone ever made you feel as though knowing you could be easy to let go of.
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[ but this might be the thing that breaks the hold on the emotions churning inside her. between the touch and claire's words, annabeth's eyes well over despite all efforts otherwise and her lip trembles. she squeezes claire's hand back, if only to stop herself from fleeing the scene like all her instincts tell her. she's always been something of a runner, and it's only very lately that she's getting better at staying. ]
Sorry - [ it bubbles out of her, for the near crying she's suffering right now. claire is a stranger and not at the same time, and the apology for absent parents and lost family the older woman doesn't even know of feels genuine more than idle sympathies. like annabeth hadn't deserved any of that, an apology from someone who she still remembers as parent-like, despite the false narrative. ] Thank you. I just - sorry, I'm - give me a second.
[ intellectually, annabeth is very well put together! emotionally, not so much. ]
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You don't have anything to apologize for, my darling.
[ Offering an understanding, closed mouth smile, Claire tries to meet Annabeth's eyes. ]
May I—may I give you a hug?
[ It's more personal, and it means being closer, so she wouldn't dare lean in without asking first, not demanding anything. She only wants to comfort, but she can also do that on the other woman's terms. ]
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[ so when claire slides closer and offers a hug, annabeth gives in with remarkable ease for herself as far as she's concerned. she nods her affirmation and doesn't really wait, just leans towards claire for a hug because it means she can hide her face, which is she really wants to do. ]
[ she hadn't gotten a lot of hugs from parents either. ]
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Her heart aches for her children in the moment, but her focus is on the family in front of her, the one who needs her, even if only a little. Whatever she can do, Claire will. ]
You're alright.
[ She speaks the words quietly, and whether she means Annabeth has nothing to worry about in regards to her emotions, or how she handles the fake memories, or something else entirely, it's open to interpretation. Whatever Annabeth needs the words to mean, they're meant for comfort. ]
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[ the surprise of claire wanting to get to know her, the sense that they already do know each other, against the very recent way athena had essentially disowned her and still expected her to follow the parthenos quest, also in combination with everything she's been feeling about herself after her difficult escape from the godly illusion - well, maybe it's not a surprise that it's come to a bit of a tipping point, with someone like claire. ]
[ the you're alright might apply to many things at once and she allows it to be all encompassing. it might also apply to tartarus, because it's still lingering behind everything else too. annabeth just wants to absorb the comfort while she can, using the hug to let it all out and try to re-gather her composure at once. she's getting there!! ]
Thank you. [ her voice sounds too watery and she can only hope claire will ignore it. ]
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Claire stays that way as long as it's needed, squeezing gently at the thanks but not arguing that it wasn't necessary. If Annabeth needs to say it, she won't tell her not to. ]
If you ever need a good hug, I'm only a thought away and I can be in the Horizon anytime you need me. Anytime, day or night. Alright?
[ It's what a good mother does, or, if she needs a different title, a best friend who will never intentionally let her down. ]
And we'll have you able to slip into the Horizon in under a minute in no time, all it takes is practice.
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[ she squeezes her eyes shut at the next offer, of a hug day or night, and despite thinking it sounds too good to be true, annabeth knows it to be genuine. she's not sure how long she sits there, but at some point she worries it's become too much, however much claire doesn't actually make her feel that way. ]
I can get in. [ she mumbles it, then finally lifts her head away, feeling like she's gotten a better handle on herself. her eyes are red, but at least they're not leaking anymore. ]
And I've started on my domain. [ lest claire think she knows nothing, gods forbid. ] The meditation part isn't my strong suit. But we're not supposed to stay very long in Thorne anyway, so it hasn't been too big a deal yet.
[ she will slide immediately into horizon talk to avoid her mini breakdown! ]
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That's why there's no time limit on how long Annabeth needs to be held. Her hold loosens on her to allow her room to pull back, and Claire reaches into her pocket, offering a simple handkerchief. ]
When I first arrived here, I couldn't even message others without literally writing on a piece of paper, forget getting into the Horizon. That's how rubbish I was. [ She smiles faintly while she remembers. ] And I think a part of me didn't want to learn, it felt like...giving in to a place I didn't want to be.
[ It feels like such a long time ago, time feels as if it moves in no particular way for her anymore. And she certainly doesn't feel the same about not wanting to be in Abraxas. ]
I don't love Thorne or the fact that you must live in the castle. Be careful there, alright?
[ She's grateful she wasn't dropped in Thorne; she'd rather deal with gods and shrines than royals and politics again. ]
In any case, I can teach you some breathing exercises when you're ready, together in our minds.
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I have ADHD. [ it doesn't occur to her that claire might not know what it is, that it might be a weird connection to make to what the older woman's just said. ] So sometimes my concentration is - [ she stops herself briefly, but can't think of another word, and ultimately decides that just because claire is being kind she doesn't have to censor herself. ] - shit. The messages were tricky for me at first too - it just sends whatever you think, right? So I had to figure out how to rein it in once the idea was in my head before it started automatically spamming.
I have a friend in Thorne - Jinora. She's been helping me with the meditation too. It's hard to stay focused sometimes. I want to learn about the Horizon, as much as I can about it.
[ somehow talking about these challenges is less intimidating than falling apart over her parental struggles. and she's... looking forward to maybe getting a little help from claire. ]
The beds are nice. [ she pauses. ] I mean, I know it's all sort of a ruse, and the politics are a mess, but they really are nice beds.
[ and considering she had just spent gods know how long in literal hell, she can be grateful for a mattress while acknowledging how shady the castle is. ] Thorne doesn't... really scare me, despite everything. I think we'll be okay.
i think we could wrap in a tag or two :3
With the mouth of a sailor at times, Claire would be the last person anyone needed to censor themselves with. ]
Thank you for telling me this, it means a lot to me, Annabeth, to have your trust.
[ And it does, she means that sincerely. There's having a fake life and fake memories to help build the foundation of something real, and there's feeling the foundation is strong enough to begin opening up. It may be something Annabeth shares freely, but Claire's still warmed to have been trusted. ]
I've also found myself wanting to understand the Horizon better, and more than that, the Singularity. We could learn together, or at the very least compare notes if that sounds like something you might be interested in.
[ She smiles softly, and her features remain neutral as Annabeth assures Claie she has a bead on Throne. And the beds are acceptable. That makes Claire smile more, and then she can't help but get in a little side squeeze. ]
Alright, then. I'll try not to worry too much.
yes i think so too!
It's not just me. Percy's the same, and a few of our friends from home. [ is this her not touching the comment about trust? yes. ] Mostly my meditation could use a little work.
[ at any rate, claire's comments on the horizon mean a lot to her in turn. annabeth finds herself smiling faintly, because it's always a little ego boost to be asked for help or collaboration, doubly so when it comes from an adult.
Yeah. I'd like that. I've been known to take a lot of decent notes. [ they tend to be in ancient greek when it comes to literal notes, but they can cross that bridge when they come to it! ] I'm interested in the Singularity too. Wary, but definitely curious.
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[ She isn't sure what that means, or why her hair stayed silver and glowing, why her magic was enhanced. Holding out her palm, it begins to glow with the soft blue and white light of the healing magic she had while they dreamed. ]
I kept my magic, and I still have the plant magic I had before, so the Singularity is making me stronger, the longer I'm here. Why?
[ That's just one question of so many, and she lets the glow fade again. ]
One thing at a time, and we'll start with the meditation. I helped someone else, and he's over in Thorne, so I don't doubt I can help you, too.
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[ annabeth's gaze drops to the magic in claire's hand, fascinated, and wondering for the first time if she'd taken anything back herself beyond the physical from the strange illusion. she might be a demigod for real, but flashy powers and magic have never really been up her repertoire. ]
[ she absently reaches out, brushing her fingers through the strands of gray in her own curls. it's both new and not, a holdover from her time as a god that stems from a very real experience at home. she's still figuring out how that happened to intertwine them. ]
This is all that came back with me... that I know of. It didn't occur to me magic might have stuck around too.
[ she hums. ] Maybe it was trying to show us something, in the illusion. A warning? A possibility? I don't want it, if that's the case.
But figuring out the Horizon should probably come first for me.
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Some think it was the actual future if we're here long enough, but I feel like speculating too much without concrete facts will only lead to anxiety and panic.
[ And so, they'll focus on the meditation first, and Claire squeezes her hand gently with a warm smile. ]
When you're ready, just reach out to me, and we'll take it slow. [ No expectations, no demands. She'll figure out where Annabeth is at and meet her there. ]
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[ she finds herself absently squeezing claire's hand in return, trying not to second guess the gesture. the older woman wouldn't have done it first without reason, right? ]
Okay. I will. I promise. [ a promise might seem a little silly, but even if she takes a while, she just doesn't want it to come across like she'd changed her mind. ergo, a promise. one day. ]
[ after she reins in some of her emotions, good GODS. ] Thank you.