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abraxaslogs2024-07-01 02:23 pm
magicalarchaeologist) wrote in abraxaslogs2024-07-01 02:23 pm
When I'm near the end and I just ain't got the time
WHO: Istredd and some people!
WHAT: Istredd is held with Kyle in the dungeons for a bit and questioned, and then let out.
WHERE: Imprisoned and then back out in Thorne
WHEN: July
WARNINGS: Nothing!
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WHAT: Istredd is held with Kyle in the dungeons for a bit and questioned, and then let out.
WHERE: Imprisoned and then back out in Thorne
WHEN: July
WARNINGS: Nothing!
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[ And as much as Lucifer's instinct was to kill everyone standing between him and Istredd, his fear of causing them damage was higher. It's a different type of panicking but one nevertheless. He has mellowed a great deal over time but he's never lost his killer instinct, only learned to curb it. Istredd was grateful because he didn't want to be afraid of more than one direction being a problem. ]
And I couldn't have him be in here.
[ Istredd doesn't know if Kyle's aware of Lucifer's deep trauma and past time in a cage, alone for so long that it would drive anyone mad. He barely handled being in that safe room, being trapped. Istredd would much rather the two of them be here alone, with no one else making enough trouble to end up here with them. It only makes things more destructive.
Istredd also thinks they are likely safe, that this is more symbolic or information gathering than anything else, which is why he probably won't hold his tongue as much as he should have. But he is, down deep, afraid. It reminds him too much of Vilgefortz and what is ahead of him there. This entire experience has led him to relive Thanedd, an unpleasant reminder. ]
You have the Horizon at least for now.
[ Istredd is too clingy so he probably would struggle with a relationship mostly in the Horizon, but since he does not believe they are here forever, an occasional Nocwich trip will again be an option. He couldn't bear the thought of even going to Nott without Lucifer, that level of clingy. ]
Why? I would, but I am also desperate to create that anchor with it, if possible.
[ Istredd can admit that his desperation is very real, he's not thinking as logically about it as he should, but he needs that security of hooking people who want to stay in. ]
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And though he doesn't know the extent of Lucifer's fears, he understands Istredd's desire to keep his loved one insulated from these consequences, and far from the dungeon - even these relatively nicer accommodations. As much as any of the others might argue, it's better this way. ][ While forcing more distance on them. It was his choice not to run, but it still feels deeply unfair that all this happened so quickly after they'd barely settled in. ]
It's your turn.
[ He holds out his hands with the string, a rueful edge to his voice. ][ That he'll mix up his connection to the Rifter with the Singularity. There are ways that that line is already blurred for him, when it comes to the divine nature of the monolith and how he's had to reorient his own beliefs around it. But what he began to believe in that vision went too far, and it caused him to lose pieces of his history that belong only to him, replaced with a version of Ravishan's life. After fighting so hard to keep both separate, it scares him. ]
thank you for your patience
[ If he did, he could have seen Viktor in Nocwich, no doubt. Still not the easiest of situations, but he'd be looking at far more freedom than he'll have staying here. Istredd selfishly was glad for Kyle staying, he has few people he can rely on as steadily as his friend, but he would have understood if he left to. And never complained about it, never said otherwise, because he knows it's selfish. He would rather Kyle be happy than responsible.
For Istredd there was no other choice. There is no option where leaving Lucifer happens. And even if he could bring Lucifer with him, they would have had to worry about Wilhelm and River, so it's why he instantly knew the answer. No real consideration was needed. But Kyle, Kyle had reasons he could go, with Istredd and Lucifer here to look after Jack and the others. ]
You are alarmingly good at picking up skills like this.
[ It's good for them to have some kind of out-loud conversation so as not to confuse the guards. It would be fine if they did do this silently, and the two of them can comfortably exist without talking, but it's a cover all the same. He is skilled enough at this to smoothly transition to the next.
Istredd understands better now than he did before, the variety of things that plague his friend. So he nods. It's not as if he wants him to end up like that again, or even worse like Cassian did, with no sense of when or where he is. ]
I understand. You need to keep a hold of yourself. An entity of power like that, it's overwhelming to anyone.
no worries! we might be able to wrap for event stuff
An eyebrow arches, and his grins. ]
I've always been quick with my hands.
[ With his knives, with the Gray Space.
He watches Istredd twist the string into the next form, thoughtful. ]
Yes let's wrap and do something in the event :)
I'll have to tell Lucifer that he can start getting good games out of someone else now.
[ Kyle is very careful. That is one time Istredd might not have been, if he could speak to the Singularity, and maybe that is one of the good reasons that he doesn't have that connection. He'd go too deeply into it, prioritize it too much. ]
Put your sanity first ... but if you do make a connection, let me know.