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[restingstitchface]

Who: Crane + Various
When: October
Where: Horizon
What: Meetings and Therapy
Warnings: None







Hello! Plot with me on safekeeping

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[restingstitchface]

[Crane raises his brows. His expression looks very much like surprise but is entirely planned.]

It is not a matter of whether you should. It is the case you don't. And if you did know everything about yourself...

[He pauses to change one point he has in mind, creating a new and unexplored question.]

Well, you wouldn't be here, would you?

[catholica]

Maybe I would be.

( yeah, that's not true. )

Maybe I wanted to visit and check in. I could have been aiming for that.

[restingstitchface]

I can't say I agree with you.

[His face wears an unshakably calm and clinical expression. The fact Matt cannot aim for anything makes "that" unlikely.]

You are struggling to find your purpose but you did have one in coming here today. Perhaps you should question why. If your purpose for this visit is not to learn about yourself, then it is to distract you from yourself.

[Is he wrong?]

[catholica]

I sometimes wonder if you can have a regular conversation.

( matt doesn't really like being exposed like this but he can't say what crane's saying is untrue. he'd come here for some reason though he's just not sure which one of the reasons it was.

his jaw tightens. )

What if I don't know what I want to learn about myself?

[restingstitchface]

[Crane refuses to clench his jaw but the feeling is there; sliding and swimming below the surface. He unclenches his fingers and clears his throat.]

I would suggest seeing a therapist.

[His light smile and tone suggests he is not entirely serious.]

But that's not why you're here. My advice is to make yourself uncomfortable: find new situations that stimulate you. The more you respond, the more you learn.

[catholica]

Well, I might be considering that and I didn't even need someone to tell me.

( he snickers and shakes his head. )

Thinking about taking a job in a bakery. That'd be about as outside of my comfort zone as I can get.

[restingstitchface]

[Crane settles in his chair. His body language is still prim and proper and upright - but there is a comfort and passion behind his eyes.

Because now they are encroaching on a subject he holds dear.]

Well, I could say you're being optimistic, but really now: you're being pedantic. What actually frightens you? What would be challenging?

[catholica]

The fact that I don't cook?

( or was he looking for something a little deeper than that? matt shrugs. )

I'm not frightened. It's just new for me. I'd rather not be terrible at something I'm getting paid for.

[restingstitchface]

Well, many people share those feelings, but you stopped being a lawyer.

[Unspoken words are there. What stops you pursuing the same career here? Other than devoting your time to observing society and reading law.]

You chose to pursue a new career with minimal investment. But, as you are learning for yourself, it is difficult to plan your future.

[catholica]

I didn't stop being a lawyer.

( he is definitely going to contest that. )

I am still a lawyer and I always will be. Just because I'm not practicing doesn't mean that I'm not still a lawyer.