[ Whether or not you believe me. It's not his intention to doubt her. It isn't. He wants nothing more than to trust her, to believe her, and he does. He just. Something lingers. Maybe it's simply too soon, this conversation. Maybe that's all it is. He's come here, to her, seen her for the first time since—all of that. And she might have healed his physical wounds, he can use the Horizon to heal them and ignore them but what has seeped and ripped into his mind remains. The rawness has not left him. It's just that he can...start to think about it now. Let himself feel it.
He lets her talk. His attention is fixed on her, taking in her words. They are not reassuring. He knows. He knows that the queen is acting of her own accord, he knows Relena was done in secret. He knows the queen is keeping her ploys quiet to avoid scrutiny from her people. He knows but it isn't the point. Because he wants the queen's attention on Yennefer no more than he wants it on Ciri. He did not agree for Yen to stay in Thorne so she can throw herself to the wolves instead. That is not—
His eyes close briefly before they open again. He does not want to part from her with a wall between them. Ciri trusts her. With her magic, her deepest secret. And more than that, he needs her. Yennefer. (He needs to believe she's among of the few he can turn to. He had turned to her. Back there, bleeding out on the ground. He knows she'd done what she had to. He wouldn't have wanted anything less.)
Her heart is steady. He can hear it. ]
I believe you. [ He sighs. Everything feels so fucked. Despite her gesture of healing earlier, some of the ache returns to him. ] Just be careful. You're important to me, too.
no subject
He lets her talk. His attention is fixed on her, taking in her words. They are not reassuring. He knows. He knows that the queen is acting of her own accord, he knows Relena was done in secret. He knows the queen is keeping her ploys quiet to avoid scrutiny from her people. He knows but it isn't the point. Because he wants the queen's attention on Yennefer no more than he wants it on Ciri. He did not agree for Yen to stay in Thorne so she can throw herself to the wolves instead. That is not—
His eyes close briefly before they open again. He does not want to part from her with a wall between them. Ciri trusts her. With her magic, her deepest secret. And more than that, he needs her. Yennefer. (He needs to believe she's among of the few he can turn to. He had turned to her. Back there, bleeding out on the ground. He knows she'd done what she had to. He wouldn't have wanted anything less.)
Her heart is steady. He can hear it. ]
I believe you. [ He sighs. Everything feels so fucked. Despite her gesture of healing earlier, some of the ache returns to him. ] Just be careful. You're important to me, too.