[Nadine can't deny that fact. They'd been better off than plenty, but...no, it hadn't been a picnic.]
Look, I know it's been hard, these last few months. And especially lately. We've been floundering a little bit. But...we can take care of ourselves. We can figure things out ourselves. And maybe...maybe it's not so bad, not having someone always telling us what to do and how to live. Not...being expected to do horrible things.
[There had always been drawbacks to being high in Flagg's court. And she knows, if he was still here, the path before them would be soaked in blood. Lloyd isn't made for that. Neither, she thinks, is Julie. Or herself for that matter. She thinks she could grow numb to it, or that maybe whatever Flagg had been doing to her would eventually erode what morals she has left. But she doesn't think she really wants that. She'd only wanted it because of him, and on her own...
The idea that maybe, finally, she does have a choice is powerful and enticing.]
And you've still got me. I know I'm not him, and I can't look after you the way he could, but...he left a little piece, with me. I'm going to look after you as best I can, I promise.
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[Nadine can't deny that fact. They'd been better off than plenty, but...no, it hadn't been a picnic.]
Look, I know it's been hard, these last few months. And especially lately. We've been floundering a little bit. But...we can take care of ourselves. We can figure things out ourselves. And maybe...maybe it's not so bad, not having someone always telling us what to do and how to live. Not...being expected to do horrible things.
[There had always been drawbacks to being high in Flagg's court. And she knows, if he was still here, the path before them would be soaked in blood. Lloyd isn't made for that. Neither, she thinks, is Julie. Or herself for that matter. She thinks she could grow numb to it, or that maybe whatever Flagg had been doing to her would eventually erode what morals she has left. But she doesn't think she really wants that. She'd only wanted it because of him, and on her own...
The idea that maybe, finally, she does have a choice is powerful and enticing.]
And you've still got me. I know I'm not him, and I can't look after you the way he could, but...he left a little piece, with me. I'm going to look after you as best I can, I promise.