But that's an advantage here. He doesn't have an adoring throng, he has us and that's it. He didn't exactly win anyone over while he was here, all I ever get when he comes up is how unsettling he was. And I don't know if it's psychological or something more, but he needs people. And we'll have some warning. The second he ever set foot in this world again, I'd know.
[Nadine understands Julie's reaction, doesn't blame her for it at all. But should Flagg return, he only has them. It's a thin shield, yes, but it's something. And his plans were important to him, he needs them. It isn't like home.
It's only a small comfort, though. She wishes there was more she could offer Julie, but they both know the reality of their situation. There aren't many things that can be said to offer comfort.]
I...I do sort of understand what you're going through. That moment when you can't justify certain things anymore, when all the pieces suddenly fit together and you realize exactly what you gave yourself over to. There's nothing I can say to make that any better. But I can say this: right now, you have a real chance, Julie. You weren't touched by him the way Lloyd and I were, I don't think he ever worked any magic on you. You don't have that darkness in you. I do, and I think Lloyd does, too. It's like a...poison, it radiates off of him and seeps in. I know what he is, what he can and would do, and for fuck's sake I still love him. I don't know if I can't at this point.
[It's her turn now to take a breath and try not shake or let out any tears. She hates herself that even still she loves Randall Flagg, misses him still in the long dark of the night. She shouldn't. She knows that she shouldn't, that there's something wrong with her, but it is what it is. And she'd bet everything she owns that he had something to do with that.]
But now, in this world, you have the chance to truly be free and live for yourself. And I don't know, I turned into a wolf. It wasn't for long, I haven't done it again, I haven't tried to do anything else. I'm not going to try to do anything else.
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[Nadine understands Julie's reaction, doesn't blame her for it at all. But should Flagg return, he only has them. It's a thin shield, yes, but it's something. And his plans were important to him, he needs them. It isn't like home.
It's only a small comfort, though. She wishes there was more she could offer Julie, but they both know the reality of their situation. There aren't many things that can be said to offer comfort.]
I...I do sort of understand what you're going through. That moment when you can't justify certain things anymore, when all the pieces suddenly fit together and you realize exactly what you gave yourself over to. There's nothing I can say to make that any better. But I can say this: right now, you have a real chance, Julie. You weren't touched by him the way Lloyd and I were, I don't think he ever worked any magic on you. You don't have that darkness in you. I do, and I think Lloyd does, too. It's like a...poison, it radiates off of him and seeps in. I know what he is, what he can and would do, and for fuck's sake I still love him. I don't know if I can't at this point.
[It's her turn now to take a breath and try not shake or let out any tears. She hates herself that even still she loves Randall Flagg, misses him still in the long dark of the night. She shouldn't. She knows that she shouldn't, that there's something wrong with her, but it is what it is. And she'd bet everything she owns that he had something to do with that.]
But now, in this world, you have the chance to truly be free and live for yourself. And I don't know, I turned into a wolf. It wasn't for long, I haven't done it again, I haven't tried to do anything else. I'm not going to try to do anything else.