You know what? You're right, I did have time to think it over and I still made my choice. I wasn't trying to leave you alone, Jules. I wanted to do it for me. I just.. had to leave you alone in order to do it. I get it was shitty and if I could do it over, I wouldn't fuckin' go.
[ He had thought it through, but when it got down to actually saying it, the script went out the window. Lloyd's never not one to fly by the seat of his pants, anyway. ]
I'm not hers, you know that! Before you got here, all we had was each other while Flagg was locked up. Then you showed up and I tried! I fucking tried getting you out, Julie, but if I kept pushing at it, I'd have been right next to you in there and I wasn't gonna do that shit again.
[ He can't even argue the point about Flagg, because even though the man's been gone for a fucking age now, Lloyd can't help but look over his shoulder for him. At this point, he doesn't know whether he wants the Dark Man to be looming behind him or to remain absent. At least being Flagg's right hand, he knew how to handle shit or figure it out along the way. He'd had power then, though. The luster is gone, but Lloyd can't say how it makes him feel. If he did come back, at this point he feels like he'd go crawling back.
He shakes his head, scuffing his toe against the floorboards before glancing back up to Julie mournfully. ]
I miss you and I feel fuckin' lost. I know you don't give a shit, but there it is.
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[ He had thought it through, but when it got down to actually saying it, the script went out the window. Lloyd's never not one to fly by the seat of his pants, anyway. ]
I'm not hers, you know that! Before you got here, all we had was each other while Flagg was locked up. Then you showed up and I tried! I fucking tried getting you out, Julie, but if I kept pushing at it, I'd have been right next to you in there and I wasn't gonna do that shit again.
[ He can't even argue the point about Flagg, because even though the man's been gone for a fucking age now, Lloyd can't help but look over his shoulder for him. At this point, he doesn't know whether he wants the Dark Man to be looming behind him or to remain absent. At least being Flagg's right hand, he knew how to handle shit or figure it out along the way. He'd had power then, though. The luster is gone, but Lloyd can't say how it makes him feel. If he did come back, at this point he feels like he'd go crawling back.
He shakes his head, scuffing his toe against the floorboards before glancing back up to Julie mournfully. ]
I miss you and I feel fuckin' lost. I know you don't give a shit, but there it is.