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abraxaslogs2022-09-01 08:42 pm
gynvael) wrote in abraxaslogs2022-09-01 08:42 pm
[ CLOSED ] the feeling never dies in your eyes
Who: Geralt + Various
When: September
Where: Cadens; Horizon; Libertas
What: thisisfine.jpg
Warnings: Blanket for Witcher canon, destruction/war imagery and related topics, etc., references to child death, NSFW marked
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When: September
Where: Cadens; Horizon; Libertas
What: thisisfine.jpg
Warnings: Blanket for Witcher canon, destruction/war imagery and related topics, etc., references to child death, NSFW marked
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He sits up and she follows a moment later with a contented sigh. She stretches her back and then stands to dress, beginning by squeezing herself back into her riding pants. ]
Y'know, I met this guy in the Horizon. I guess he's new. But he brought you up. [ Her voice is even, almost distracted, as she rests on a pillow to tug her boots back on. ] Said you would know that he knows about monoliths and that you'd vouch he's legit. He was weird as fuck. Didn't exactly strike me as the kinda person you'd hang out with.
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He glances up from buttoning his shirt. Who? It takes him a second. Then: ]
Istredd? [ A perplexed sort of amusement crosses his expression. Istredd apparently has more faith in Geralt's trust in him than reality. Perhaps that's about what he should expect from a mage trained under the Brotherhood's institution. ] We crossed paths once when I was investigating monoliths on the Continent. His vast knowledge serves a purpose, but he's dedicated his life to his research. Men like that will compromise people and principles alike to attain what they believe is key to their life's work. Knowingly or not.
[ That is to say, he doesn't mistrust Istredd precisely, nor does he believe Istredd harbours any ill intent. Not like that. But he does think the man is prone to willful blindness where his research is concerned. ]
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[ And freak connection or not, Julie is not about to risk anyone else forcing her back to death. Her entire life relies on the Singularity's continued health and existence; she thinks that gives her a right to play guard.
She reaches up to retie her hair, smoothing it out, as she continues. ] Then he got real intense and wanted me to tell him about the Singularity and it was just... ugh. [ A small shudder. He had not made a good first impression, though of course he had no way of knowing just how many of her triggers he managed to set off. ] That's when he namedropped you. Said you'd say he was trustworthy. You and Yennefer.
[ There's not any clear indication of what she thinks of this information, this name. She leans back on her hands, watching him. ]
Who's Yennefer?
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[ In the Horizon? Istredd had said he'd gone there. Though he doubts the man was cursing it. He has a strange fascination with the monoliths. If there's one thing Geralt trusts, it's that Istredd wishes to preserve it. At what cost, he does not know, but that is where their goals align.
When she says Yennefer, his hand pauses over his cloak. After a second, he picks it up. ]
A sorceress. From home. [ He doesn't mean to be evasive; he can barely explain who Yennefer is to himself. None of the words feel right. In the end he settles on context that Julie might understand more than searching for some vague term. It's a door he's been reluctant to open when it comes to the life he's built in Cadens—not for any reason except that he's a man who prefers to move on than look back. And where Yennefer is concerned, it always feels too much as though he's looking back. ] She's in Thorne. She was there with the Queen.
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[ There's an irony in the fact that Julie, who is in every other way a greedy, possessive brat, is very rarely jealous in a romantic sense. And while she can't say she likes the way that comes out of him, her hackles don't raise just over the idea of another woman.
She was there with the Queen, on the other hand, has an immediate effect. A sour, angry expression spreads over her face. She can feel hot fury settle behind her eyes. And she can't say whether she would feel this way if she hadn't recently relived that particular event, but it hits a terribly sore nerve.
Julie is almost never at a loss for words, but right now, the only ones that come to her are so hateful, so violent, and not meant for Geralt. So she doesn't say anything, just abruptly rises and exits the tent, which vanishes behind her.
On the plus side, she didn't set anything on fire. ]
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Still. He made a choice in that room—the only one that mattered, the only one he felt he could. And he would make it again for Ciri. He would not have wanted anything less than Yennefer's trust he can handle some pain to protect what's important. What happened remains a deep scar for a different reason—not the capture, but the memory that violently resurfaced, compounded by her betrayal he remembered afterwards.
It's something he's told almost no one. He's mentioned it to one or two, a memory shook loose, but not the real reason behind it or the precise nature of it. Only Jaskier and Ciri to this day comprehend the full picture. He's not sure he'd have even told Jaskier had the bard not stumbled over the cellar that spawned in his domain. The truth is, he doesn't want to talk about it. He does not want to dig deep into his heartache to untangle why he feels how he does.
Eventually, he returns to the horses. Roach gives him a nudge, and he scratches her mane. ]
I don't wish to revisit old wounds. [ He is not referring to the physical marks left on him. He tugs on the straps of Roach's saddle. He's quiet, something open and raw he doesn't bother to mask. ] I've spent too many of my days healing them as it is.
[ Except sometimes he's not certain he's finished doing so. A stark reminder lurks in the Horizon each time he enters. ]
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By the time he makes it to the horses, she is already mounted on hers, with the distinct aura that she had only barely restrained from riding off on her own. The truth is, she really wants to do that, wants to let Baron gallop to his heart's content so that she doesn't have to think about anything except how fast the wind rushes past her. When she was much younger, with even fewer anger management skills than she has now, it was something she used to do. But empty fields and dirt roads in rural Kansas don't have bandits or monsters lurking around, and they didn't have Geralt either.
Her fingers clench around the reins she holds, her knuckles white. She isn't trying to make him hurt. That's not what she wants. Baron impatiently paws the ground as she grinds her jaw, trying to pick her words carefully. ]
Wounds only heal once there's nothin' around to open 'em back up. [ And this Yennefer is clearly very much still in this world. That makes her a problem, in Julie's eyes. Someone who was willing to fuck you over once will always be willing to do it again.
It's all she says to him before she tightens her legs, lets Baron start heading back. But she mutters under her breath, to herself. Her mind is spiraling with anger. ] Better not get close to it again... birds of a fuckin' feather...
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But he does trust Julie, too, that she knows him, that at the end of the day he simply needs space and time and room to make his decisions. He has never considered himself a complicated man. More just one few have cared to understand, beyond the people closest to him.
He rides for a while without speaking, lets her work through her thoughts or feelings as she will. He is not, at all, aware that she has spoken to Stephen about what happened to him. ]
When I was in Nott, [ he breaks the silence at last, ] there were times I was loath to leave. I am glad I saw it with you. Circumstances aside.
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It had worked, to make Stephen take the threat seriously. He's a doctor, knew the severity of what he was looking at when she showed him. Understood how deeply it had affected her just to be the one caught in the aftermath. At least it served the purpose she wanted.
Her trust in Geralt is not changed. She doesn't hold it against him to need time, to make these decisions. She only wishes he had been more open about some of the details; that it was not only one of their own but someone from his home world, someone who is still here. No matter what anyone feels or trusts, that is a threat, an active one that still, apparently, sits on the court.
Active and growing, as Istredd had been particularly emphatic about going to school with her. Julie grew up in a place where everyone knew everyone, and had since childhood. Old bonds are much stronger than new ones.
For a long time, she is lost in thought, diving into the depths of her own manipulative tendencies to better understand what might have happened to put all these pieces into place. Where they might go next. For a Summoned to come into this world and claw themselves up onto Thorne's court, win the queen's favor enough to necessitate testing, that takes ambition. Julie knows ambition. Knows that personality. She was that person, for so long, and might have been that person here had they not thrown her in the dungeon. It gives her insight. This kind of chess is one of the few things she truly excels at.
But he speaks and she looks over at him. There's something genuinely heartbroken in her eyes at the thought, not of Geralt in Nott, but of them not being in Nott now. She's never been tight-lipped about her desire to go back, live there, despite knowing the danger. Her smile is soft, a bit regretful. ]
I'm glad too. They don't deserve what happened. They don't care about any of this political bullshit, it ain't their war. They're just stuck in the middle.
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He looks back. Mm. He knows. He feels better with her close by, but he can't blame her for missing Nott. In the little time he spent there, it'd suited him better: the climate, the people, the lakeside. If not for Ciri and Jaskier, he may have remained there. ]
So it often goes. [ Village and towns—razed for being in the way. ] You'd have liked Oxenfurt. Not too different. Bit larger.
[ He curls his fingers around the reins. A few minutes tick by. His mind has not entirely left the topic of Yennefer. He is not often one to explain—but he doesn't want Julie to feel as though he would forsake her, or even himself, solely because he has history with someone. No matter how complicated that history. If it comes down to it—he knows what he'll do. ]
I haven't got any easy answers about Yennefer. But I have made hard choices before, and I will again. Let me handle her.
[ He had not understood then. He does now. And he's never hesitated where it counts. If there's one thing he knows about himself, it's that. ]
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In her ideal Abraxas, they're all together in Nott, though she knows that for some of them, Cadens probably suits better. But Julie hates the desert (at least Vegas had air conditioning), hates the government, is wary of the people there. The sole upsides are the fashion and the access to Aquila, the only other place she thinks she might care to live in, but at the end of the day, she came to Cadens because who she was with mattered much more to her than anything else. She wanted to be with him, with Ciri and Jaskier and Sam, and if she had to live in Cadens to do it, then that was what she'd do.
Her smile grows a little. She chuckles. ] Sounds perfect. Nott is a little on the small side for my tastes. Bigger'n where I'm from, smaller than where I always wanted to be.
[ Biting the inside of her cheek, she tilts her head to the side, pushes a strand of hair out of her face. It's not a question of his choices or her trust in them. She knows herself well enough to know that it's something much more selfish and venomous. This Yennefer was a party to hurting someone important to Julie, and that's enough to drive white hot hatred for a very long time.
She's never been one to let things go easily. ]
You can handle her. I trust you. But she's got friends now, if it comes down to it again. You don't have to handle 'em all on your own.
wrapping!
He hums. Vegas is where Julie wound up, but he's never asked where it is she had hoped to go before the world fell apart and a demon drew her forth. Doesn't ask now, either. One way or another, it's too late for lost dreams. Always has been. He finds himself thinking instead, more and more, of where they may be in the months, years, coming. Still in Cadens? Pushed elsewhere by the tides of war?
Difficult to say.
He watches her for a moment, before he answers softly. ] I know.
[ Yeah. He does. She's long become someone he can rely on. If he needs her, he knows she'll be there. ]
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Okay. [ Her voice is equally soft, and it's all she says. She doesn't often fight his inclinations to do things on his own. If that's what he wants, then that's his prerogative. But it can't hurt to occasionally remind him that he doesn't have to do everything that way.
The sun gradually gets lower as they return to the city gates. ]