All Jayce has to go back to is disaster. Some of it made by him. He's going to lose Viktor. He's going to lose his position, possibly all of his work. It's possible the peace with Zaun happens, and if so, he can be thankful about that, but it won't stop the other parts from being true. There is no happy ending for him, and maybe he doesn't deserve one, but that doesn't mean he is actively going to go searching for misery. He is not that much of a masochist.
Jayce already knows where this all ends up so he doesn't think an argument needs to happen. In the end, he'll do what Viktor wants. What is he going to do? Try to live here without him? He would rather die. It's not his choice and maybe lying there on their bed, in this home they made together, he's a little angry about it. He doesn't respond to what Viktor says because he thinks it's foolish. It's not about the spell. They are not in control of what happens right now. They can try to figure it out over time, but no one in over a year has managed to get the spell to work for the Summoned.
When Jayce is angry, he sees red, but he's more likely to get depressed, to hit low lows, and that is where he feels himself creeping toward again. It wouldn't be disconnected like before, at least, but he does feel that sort of sad acceptance fall over him. It's stupid, to wish it was as simple for Viktor as it was for him. But feelings can be very stupid like that. He knows the silence between them is being filled with all the things they aren't saying, and as two geniuses, they are well aware of that.
Words appear over his eyelids and it's Dean's post. Right after it happens, and he sees words shooting around, causing all kinds of feelings. Jayce blinks away a tear and sits up. "Network post. We can check in on Nadine there." He gets off the bed. Apparently he would rather just brush by this instead of deal with it, but that is his way. "Ask her what she needs, it'll give us something to do."
Jayce is going to read all of it, which is not really good for him, considering, but he is mostly going to stay out of it. He brushes his fingers in a light caress through Viktor's hair as he passes him and leaves the bedroom.
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Jayce already knows where this all ends up so he doesn't think an argument needs to happen. In the end, he'll do what Viktor wants. What is he going to do? Try to live here without him? He would rather die. It's not his choice and maybe lying there on their bed, in this home they made together, he's a little angry about it. He doesn't respond to what Viktor says because he thinks it's foolish. It's not about the spell. They are not in control of what happens right now. They can try to figure it out over time, but no one in over a year has managed to get the spell to work for the Summoned.
When Jayce is angry, he sees red, but he's more likely to get depressed, to hit low lows, and that is where he feels himself creeping toward again. It wouldn't be disconnected like before, at least, but he does feel that sort of sad acceptance fall over him. It's stupid, to wish it was as simple for Viktor as it was for him. But feelings can be very stupid like that. He knows the silence between them is being filled with all the things they aren't saying, and as two geniuses, they are well aware of that.
Words appear over his eyelids and it's Dean's post. Right after it happens, and he sees words shooting around, causing all kinds of feelings. Jayce blinks away a tear and sits up. "Network post. We can check in on Nadine there." He gets off the bed. Apparently he would rather just brush by this instead of deal with it, but that is his way. "Ask her what she needs, it'll give us something to do."
Jayce is going to read all of it, which is not really good for him, considering, but he is mostly going to stay out of it. He brushes his fingers in a light caress through Viktor's hair as he passes him and leaves the bedroom.