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December Chronicle [ closed ]
Who: Sam Winchester
What: Catch-all for getting settled, meeting those of acclaim, and preparing to get more involved.
Where: Cadens, Nocwich, Horizon
When: December
Notes: PM for starters; will match style.
Warnings: See headers in individual threads. Please mark appropriately.
So now that you've arrived, well, you wonder,
What is it that you've done to make the grade?
What: Catch-all for getting settled, meeting those of acclaim, and preparing to get more involved.
Where: Cadens, Nocwich, Horizon
When: December
Notes: PM for starters; will match style.
Warnings: See headers in individual threads. Please mark appropriately.
What is it that you've done to make the grade?
Cadens / Mag's [ closed ]
Intention to make himself available, he finds an empty table in the tavern area of Mag's where he can spread out a bit. He's gathered some books — a relatively inoffensive looking biographical stack – and perhaps he appears strangely restrained, all six-plus feet of him curled in around a table made for more, but truthfully he's as at home here as anywhere.
At some point, those long legs might kick an opposing chair in front of a passing body, and just once a fumble will have him quickly trying to soak up some water before it ruins one of the books spread on the table.
He's really a sight: long hair and long limbs and long on being by himself as his Hermit designation has appropriately deemed. Still, there's little stopping him from offering tight smiles while newly wrapped in attire more befitting a locale (although still looking very much as if he feels he doesn't belong).
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That jovial mood is practically freakin' Christmas, broadcasted out loud through sheer body language alone, possibly contagious via contact as he claps a hand down on Ciri's shoulder.
"Come on, I got someone I want you to meet."
It's that time again. That semi-regular almost-bimonthly time where new faces become long-timers at Mag's, and considering how many people have been filtering in from Dean's universe as of late, maybe she can connect the dots without an explanation. Not the particulars, not specifically who, but at least that one of those new faces is relevant like Jo and Claire were.
So he drags her away from her lovely family townhouse back to the Sarstina, spends a second scanning the room for the tall son of a bitch with the big face he knows to be holed up there, and then strides on over when he finds the guy doing the Sam-est thing to ever Sam. God help him, he can't quite muscle down the fondness. He's interrupted from his Sam-ing abruptly and unceremoniously with a short whistle to get his attention. There before him stands Dean, and beside him a much smaller, much younger girl, tragically lacking a sword that looks plenty hefty enough to decapitate a man.
"This is who I was tellin' you about," directed toward his brother, and then in turn an explanation for her, "Ciri, this is eight foot tall haircut is my brother Sam."
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"I don't know what he's telling you, but don't trust his skills of estimation," he says without missing a beat. He folds the book closed, finally looking up at the two of them. Dean is as expected, of course, but Ciri not so much. At first blush Sam's reminded of Jo — small, obviously armed, deceptively sweet badass status to be determined — but her obvious connections (Dean aside [read: Geralt]) keep the younger brother from such bold acceptance.
Smiling, he gestures to the available chairs without standing. Far be it for him to unseat Dean's appraisal of his height, although Ciri, certainly with some amount of common sense, will probably be fine to assess Sam as over six feet (but not seven or eight).
"Is that 'Siri' with an 'S' or 'Ciri' with a 'C'?" he asks while gathering the books to one side of the table, making room as he can.
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So this is Dean's brother. They don't look much alike, she thinks, but it wasn't like she'd spent any time at all imagining what Dean's brother might actually look like.
She's automatically filtered out half of what Dean is saying, as usual, so she barely notices the exaggeration. Sam's vague correction, as it were, earns him a small snort of a laugh. With his wordless invitation to sit, she takes a chair and crosses her arms on the edge of the table.
"With a C. It's short for Cirilla." She says as if that word or name are known to either of them, but it's absentminded, sort of automatic in explanation. "Taking notes on all the new people you meet so you don't embarrass yourself forgetting names later?"
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"She doesn't know about Siri with an S yet," he volunteers absently, digging around in his bag for his own journal. "Don't tell her. I'm trying to figure out a way to slow-burn that one in."
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"It doesn't hurt to be accurate," he notes, although she isn't incorrect about his intentions, either. Sam, for his own part, tends to avoid foibles like that where he can. Dean, on the other hand, probably has seven nicknames for Ciri already (but won't ever forget her name even if he'll rarely use it properly).
"So, what's Dean told you about me?" It's well shy of blunt, not forceful by any means, proffered with a thin smile that he hides behind a sip of water he's been nursing for hours. Sam isn't looking to (purposefully) make enemies of his brother's friends, but he'd also learned some time back that they don't need to share the same sentiments about people.
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"Oh, you know. This and that. Just that he's got a brother, also a hunter. Pain in the ass as all brothers are." She smiles, a brief flash of teeth. "Obviously missed you like crazy. Couldn't wait to show you off as soon as you appeared."
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"Fascinating stuff. People were thrilled to hear it, I'm sure," he muses quietly, trying for his own part to imagine how things would have come up had he arrived first instead of Dean. Would Sam have shared the same (or more) about his brother? Would Ciri still be at the table? Time will tell one way or another, at least in part, Sam figures, and while he's admittedly wary, he's not feeling any of the alarming signals he'd been faced with when he'd made the connections to (and between) those sitting at his table, proverbial or otherwise. If anything, Dean's improved mood is driving that cursory acceptance and he presses on.
"Are you a student?" He asks, but he'd noted the weapon on her and suspects her role to be similar to Dean's, but some consideration of the current society says she could be doing both adventuring and learning.
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"No. What kind of student did you think I was?"
A glance at Dean.
"...his?"
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"I could be a teacher," defensively; how dare you scoff. "I'm a great teacher."
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"I don't see why you couldn't be a student of whatever," he says, noting Ciri, "Or why you couldn't be a teacher," Sam adds, gesturing to his brother. Granted, classes for all involved would vary greatly — of that he's certain — and Sam probably wouldn't be taking Dean's class (for crossover reasons, he tells himself) but it doesn't seem out of the ordinary.
"Isn't the university a pretty large draw? I assumed people would be taking advantage of that," Sam explains, hoping his reasoning isn't too elementary for Ciri's liking. "I know I'm planning to see what they have to offer." He doesn't say as much, but there's no family business here to maintain, although there's no chance Sam won't be involved in whatever the others embroil themselves. Still, his curiosity won't be sated until he gives it proper consideration.
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Her head tips curiously.
"What kind of classes are you looking to take?"
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"I'm not sure," he admits. "It's more for the sake of my curiosity, but I wouldn't say no to the education track if it falls into my lap."
Shifting, Sam's attention wanes and he glances around them before adding, "Of course, that's all secondary to helping out. If there's time." He couldn't abandon Dean, couldn't make that decision again even if urged to do so. (That's the feeling this week, at least.) And so he shrugs. It's nice to feel the guise of options for once, even if he's not saying as much.
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Dean's trying to give them a little space to chat among themselves, let them get to know each other, get off on the right foot — which means stepping out of the conversational spotlight for the most part.
Despite that, he can't quite muffle his quiet scoff of, "Pff, nerd."
Quietly, under his breath, and followed quickly by a drink. Don't mind him.
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Ciri glances over at Dean's noise, then looks back up at Sam, considering him for a long moment before taking an equally long drink. She lets the silence linger for a few seconds, then finally announces, with her cup thudding back onto the tabletop, "You're nothing like what I imagined Dean's brother might be."
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(There isn't much heat behind it. He knows him and his brother are night and day in a lot of ways. It's mostly for The Dramatique.)
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For Sam, who was essentially raised by Dean, there isn't a day that goes by that he doesn't feel the lessons of a lifetime together coming through him in recognizable patterns of actions and thoughts (even if he doesn't act on them). At the heart of him is the heart of Dean. He was built that way, side-by-side with a true catalyst of good, the driving force, the magnetic pull that keeps them together. Even at his worst, Dean always fights. Sam should be so lucky.
"We've actually got a lot in common," he finally says, as if snapped out of a dream, perhaps even a hair over-obvious in saying as much. Although he doesn't explain further, there's no doubt (today) in Sam's mind about the marks they share.
Gesturing openly, he notes Ciri while sitting up some in his seat. Signaling his interest, he says, "Why don't you tell me a little bit about you. Dean mentioned you're not alone here?" The lilt of his question is less because Dean directly said as much and more because it's something that's been gleaned or otherwise overheard and it hasn't particularly felt like a secret.
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"Been here about a year and a half now. I hunt monsters, take the occasional job as a guard and monster deterrent. Dean mentioned you know a bit about that too."
Despite the leading question, she doesn't really elaborate on what Dean might've meant by her not being alone here. What is she supposed to say? Start elaborating on who is from her world, who she lives with, who her friends are? It seems rather ridiculous.
Ciri shoots Dean a look.
What the hell are we doing here?
Horizon [ closed ]
—Geralt
Telltale signs pop up under Sam's gaze. It's not Dean's influence alone. Jo's footprints walk the same paths as Sam's, and it squeezes at his heart to realize how much space they've had to offer to so many people who aren't around anymore to take advantage of it. Or weren't. Or still aren't, but he doesn't like to think about that.
Here there seems to be near infinite amounts space, enough for everyone. And no shortage of people to take advantage of the rooms formed around the Men of Letters' legacy.
It is, in fact, people he's hoping to avoid one late afternoon — hermit as as hermit does — when he ventures out of his room, and it's people (probably) that he finds.
He clears his throat, saying quietly, "Geralt."
The greeting is strained and considering the man is spread out in the common room with tomes a'plenty, it doesn't appear he's at all uncomfortable in this setting (unlike Sam). He would be hard to miss, Dean's description aside, as the list of individuals with access to this realm are faces Sam would otherwise recognize on sight. Process of elimination.
"Does my brother have you doing his research now?" He tries for a hair of amusement, knowing as he does how Dean respects the man, but there's no denying the tension in his shoulders as he attempts to process Geralt's presence here. As something fully distant from what Sam knows (and yet somehow very much the same), he can't help but feel uncertain about the man's presence in a very personal piece of himself.
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Who knew there were even more varieties of vampires than what existed on the Continent.
Footsteps catch his attention before Sam emerges, along with a human heartbeat. He gives no indication, idly leafing through the leather-bound volume until Sam addresses him upfront. Geralt doesn't look as if he belongs, exactly, so much as he appears perfectly at ease with being out of place. With existing surrounded by an air of tension that he may or may not be the cause of. (He often is.)
His gaze flicks up. Dean's told Geralt of his brother's arrival. But it remains strange to see a face that's both familiar and not—encountered only once, fleeting, in Dean's dreams. That Sam had carried an edge of wariness, too. Geralt needn't ask to gather where it comes from now. Or where he presumes it comes from, anyhow.
"I like books," he replies, deadpan but lightly enough. He closes the tome an inch, finger between the pages to hold his place. His head tilts. "He mentioned you'd newly surfaced. Settling?"
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"I'm getting there. I've had a lot of help," he points out. He surveys the area as he answers Geralt, the sense of familiarity washing over him like nostalgia. Something about it all reminds him of home, but he wanders in his own doubt over how he can take such advantage and comfort in a place he hasn't truly come to accept. Amidst that, more doubt: Sam can't accept in part. To believe in Dean's presence, in Cas and Jo's presence, but deny the rest doesn't make sense. Still, he struggles. The questions multiply by the day.
(How can the books exist here? With what information are they filled and from which mind came the writing? Do they trust it to be true? Do they trust themselves to be true, for that matter?)
"There's no rule you can't take that with you." Sam gestures to the book. "To your—" He clears his throat subtly. "—room."
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Eventually, Geralt gives an equally indifferent hum in return. A courtesy acknowledgment. For him, that is as good as a full conversation. Had Sam not followed up, Geralt would've returned to his reading without another word. But Sam does: a vague little gesture, a hint of where a certain Witcher ought to be.
Geralt has long learned to read between the lines. He also does not much care to navigate those lines himself.
His answer is measured, not a challenge. But he's made no effort to soften the frankness in it. "If you've something to say, say it."
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"What I mean," he says, patiently, "is that this isn't a public library. You don't need to observe 'the rules.'" Sam uses air quotes at the end, eyebrows going up. This is, perhaps, not helping in any manner, but its application is technically sincere. It isn't so much a get out as a if you're not comfortable, you don't have to stay here. Despite all of that, the sentiment is still heavily cast in an unfortunate pall of both concern and distrust.
Thing is, it's not just Geralt getting the brunt of this: With Dean's increasing antagonism and distance, Sam has become suspicious of everyone, in part. Himself included.
"Dean mentioned you're a hunter. He says he trusts you," Sam adds as he gestures to one of the other chairs, a silent question he doesn't feel he needs to ask but does out of some sense of courtesy.
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To him, there can only be one reason for Sam's insinuations.
In either case: No. He does not need to observe rules. He also hasn't any interest in philosophizing over the nature of rules and humans and what is or isn't expected when something of his kind is involved. His only reply is silence, the type that suggests he can answer. He just doesn't see a reason to.
His eyebrow lifts. "Have you got rules for sitting?" Geralt finally puts his book aside, which Sam can interpret as he wishes where taking a chair is concerned. "I'm a Witcher."
It isn't a difference he emphasizes with everyone, but he does here. He studies Sam for a moment. Hard not to sense Sam edging his way towards a topic Geralt would much rather delve right into. Still, he's willing to extend his patience, and so he makes a simple, Continue gesture. Yes, Dean trusts him. He trusts Dean in turn. Where is this going?
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"I only bring it up because Dean can be a little nearsighted when it comes to people." Not that Sam is any better, and in saying as much, his fingers flex out straight like he's trying to stem the tide of whatever might come. "Which isn't an accusation. But he's been—" Lips pinching, eyebrows following suit, Sam folds his fingers back down and probes on: "—agitated. Have you noticed?" He gestures at Geralt needlessly, and adds, "I figured I'd ask, since you know him so well."
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Besides. They're all nearsighted, under the right circumstances. He's not immune, either.
"I've noticed." He also knows exactly the problem with Dean. As much as it isn't for him to grant the details, he equally doesn't want to get involved in covering for Dean. The line between omission and discretion is thin. Speaking to Jo was one thing. He'd had time to gauge the dynamic between she and Dean. Dean and his brother is another crack in the ice entirely, and not one he wants to step on blind.
Really, this would be simpler if Dean would tell everyone what the fuck was going on. Be done with it. He can't blame the man for avoiding the topic, but—it's beginning to bleed out past the point where people notice.
He sighs. "I confronted him not long ago. He eventually told me the truth. But frankly," Geralt continues, blunt but not unkind, "if he's not revealed it to you, then it isn't my place to say. You should ask him yourself. Or give him time to come around to it."
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Sam sighs, then, a hand pushing through his hair. "Thanks. For the insight," he says, haltingly, lips pressed into a straight line that could be a smile but probably measures equally as consternation. He leans back in the chair, exhibiting more comfort without actually feeling it. Despite his obvious concerns, one thing does become increasingly clear: Geralt is close enough to Dean that the trust between them is starkly mutual; Dean would never share a serious shortcoming, even pressed, if that weren't the case.
"Is it possible we're exacerbating the situation?" Sam doesn't pause in including himself as a potentially unsettling influence.
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Dean is an exception. And having met Jo, now Sam—so far, Dean continues to remain one.
There is no we. His connection is with Dean and Dean alone. In the same breath Sam aims to include them as one, Geralt separates them again.
"I am not," he replies. Unhesitating, like he's never given the idea a second thought. "For you, I can't answer."
A beat. Sam, unlike Dean, is a little less straightforward to discern, full of carefully trimmed words. He finds himself backtracking to Dean can be a little nearsighted. Whether Sam meant his current remark to build on that or not—it's how Geralt reads it.
"You don't trust me around your brother."
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"Dean handles himself," he explains, "and I've learned to respect that." In part. "But none of us are without influence. Or being influenced. 'A body at rest remains at rest unless an outside force acts upon it,'" Sam quotes, although he's fallen very far from the tree where Newton postulated such things (and never mind that Geralt doesn't know Newton from Adam [another "common knowledge" item which also presents as an Earthly thing perhaps entirely lacking in context]).
"I wouldn't be much of a brother if I hadn't considered it." It's almost presented unabashedly, although Sam has the good sense to lower his gaze in time with reaching out to twist one of the books around on the table so he can investigate the cover. The fact that he feels shy of what he says doesn't make it true, and despite his efforts otherwise, Sam expects to always struggle with the thought, at least in some manner. Dean will always be the better brother, but that doesn't mean Sam stops trying.
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An impatience is creeping up on Geralt, the kind where he does not seek to clarify someone's meaning because he's pretty fucking sure the answer isn't favourable either way. Even so, he's allowed a certain leeway. He's aware Sam is Dean's brother; he knows how people are about the ones they love. Not always the most reasonable. Besides, he isn't here to interfere with Dean's relationships nor make them more difficult. Fuck knows he can't explain the precise role Yennefer plays in his life, even after everything, nor does he ever care to.
Some things simply are.
For the first time, Geralt leans forward. If his tone was candid before, it's especially so now.
"You're concerned. I understand." He doubts this is a conversation Sam holds with Dean's human friends, though he doesn't care to raise that point. He is not interested in debating the nature of his existence in Sam's eyes. "Let me be clear: I've spent the better part of a century alone. That is the path my kind walks. I am not here because I want or need anything from your brother. I am here because he asked me to be, and he's earned my trust. That is all."
If Sam cannot accept this, then the person to take it up with is Dean. Not him.
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"Good." If he's relenting, there isn't a lot of heart in it, but some. He nods to himself. "That's what I wanted to hear," he tells Geralt, mostly with his eyebrows.
A moment later, he's back on his feet and carefully pushing in his chair. Fingers tapping against back, he seems to consider saying something else but eventually nods a second time and then dismisses himself without another word. He doubts Geralt will complain.