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Lucifer ([personal profile] thedevilwhorose) wrote in [community profile] abraxaslogs2023-01-01 12:53 am

am I a villain or a saint?

Who: Lucifer, others
When: December January shhhh
Where: Thorne, the Horizon
What: Closed for the moment; will open more later
Warnings: Wrathful teenagers, discussions of violence... Not in the same thread.



(Closed for the moment.)
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[personal profile] outwear 2023-02-24 12:57 am (UTC)(link)
There's always that moment of uncertainty where Sam has to decide if Lucifer is telling the truth or winding him up. Maybe it's always both. The words roll out the same way, anyway, and the part that really unsettles Sam is how he's never quite disinterested enough to stop listening. Worse yet if he agrees, as if Lucifer can't be right.

Unfortunately, Sam knows otherwise. It haunts him in a way and it's moments like these that he wishes he would have brought along some company so he'd be too ashamed to engage so willingly. Jo, if anyone, because she's less likely to act. Dean probably would have blown his top by now.

"I guess some things are universal," Sam says, not wanting to agree or disagree even if it sounds plenty plausible. All he knows of Solvunn is what he's told and even that suffers without context.

Sam picks at a piece of bark, breaking off pieces and tossing them away. Diverting, he asks, "How long have you been here now?"
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[personal profile] outwear 2023-03-05 01:47 am (UTC)(link)
Sam huffs. There have been days, certainly, where they're easily old friends, just not the kind of friends that are good for each other.

"Seven months, wow. And you've settled somewhere provincial and made friends," he says, unable to keep himself from taking the opportunity for a short jab. But it certainly does highlight for Sam how Abraxas has taken out their teeth, their nails, whatever else it pleases. Never mind the supposed gifts. He almost asks Lucifer what he's been bestowed but realizes he doesn't want to know lest they have to discuss someone believing in Lucifer enough to reward him.

Clearing his throat, Sam gestures vaguely. "Did you make one of these for yourself?" And how does Sam ensure he doesn't stumble his way into it?
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[personal profile] outwear 2023-03-05 06:48 pm (UTC)(link)
Of course. Why is he even surprised? The sins of the father have always been the same, an old theme, rote in its application through all things. Lucifer helped invent the (religious) constraints of the parent/child relationship so it's unlikely he needs reminded how much it sucks, but when it's all you have, it's all you ever think about, he supposes. Sam wonders briefly if Lucifer finds reason to blame God for a split stream when the piss hits his own boot, knowing as he does that Lucifer often applies reason to others but excuses this in his own relationships. Certainly, when it came to (and still comes to) Sam, his reason has been lacking.

"Honestly? I don't trust the process. Maybe I've had a few too unwelcome visitors," Sam says, indicating his head. "So, for now? Yeah, sure, I'll suffer the discomfort of being uncreative in exchange for family and security." It's kept Lucifer out, hasn't it? So, mission accomplished.
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[personal profile] outwear 2023-03-12 07:40 am (UTC)(link)
The confirmation creates a flicker of disdain and Sam acknowledges how he hates being right the most when it's in agreement with Lucifer. Despite all of that, he's relieved in a way to have company in this suspicion; so many others seem to just assume the best, or look well past because it feels too good to have something of yourself (especially so easily shared).

"What happened?" If he doesn't ask he'll wonder.
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[personal profile] outwear 2023-03-22 01:24 am (UTC)(link)
Hard enough to make sense of any of this as-is, but Lucifer's additions only itch at a distrustful part of Sam that demands no more intrusions. He only needs one voice in his head, so to speak, and just the idea that something as sinister (or more so) than his current list of concerns makes him that much more relieved to know his own brain-space is intermingled with those he trusts most. If something (or someone) comes looking there for Sam (up to and including Lucifer), resistance is bound to be met.

"It sounds like you're telling ghost stories," Sam says with a huff. It's meant to be a joke, but the gravity generated between Lucifer finding it worth mentioning and Sam's disinterest in being an experiment (brain laid open to whatever else AGAIN) means that he can't help a small expression of his own concern over those shared details.

He watches Lucifer for a moment, then walks past him at a leisurely pace, sort of expecting he'll come along side (or otherwise get the picture that Sam is on his way out one way or another).