"I don't mind blunt. I'm tired of people saying what they want me to hear."
It was extremely harsh to hear at the time, especially considering how low he'd fallen and how filled with self-hate he was. But Jayce also didn't give in and keep going on their path of violence and death. If she continued hers, that was her choice, but it was too much for him. Jayce doesn't have the stomach for actual violence, he learned that much, especially after Libertas. He also doesn't want to be a politician anymore, for the same reason.
"Maybe we could have gotten along, but I planned on making peace with Silco, which obviously is counter-productive to what we did." Although in many ways he thinks what they did is exactly why the man agreed to show up. Or he thought he would. Jayce knows it sounds insane set out like this, but he sighs. "I planned on offering the Undercity the independence they needed. Let them govern themselves, have their own trade routes, and not be under our thumb. I don't know if the Council will listen to me anymore, but I thought that was the only way."
Silco was evil and dangerous, but as far as Jayce knows, there was no one else in the Undercity that he could negotiate with. If there was, he would do it in a minute, to stay away from the man. He didn't know how they could destroy Silco and then offer the same thing to a broken leaderless Undercity. It was all shitty options at that point.
"Piltover has failed them, you said it yourself. I don't think we can fix it, and I don't think the Council would have actually bothered." So this was his way of trying to outflank their indifference. Maybe it sounded like a horrible deal with the devil, and it was, but Jayce thought of every possible angle. He just wanted to make things better, but the Council broke everything too much. It couldn't be pieced back together by them.
Jayce stands again and this time he pulls her into a hug. He could use the contact and his fears haven't gone away but she has managed to inspire some of his optimism and confidence again. "I plan to marry him, if we make it on the other end of this. Don't tell him, it'll be hard enough trying to get him to agree." Viktor agreeing is the problem, mostly because as much as he loves Jayce, it's just so formal of a thing. Much more Jayce's style, to want a commitment, ring, and wedding.
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It was extremely harsh to hear at the time, especially considering how low he'd fallen and how filled with self-hate he was. But Jayce also didn't give in and keep going on their path of violence and death. If she continued hers, that was her choice, but it was too much for him. Jayce doesn't have the stomach for actual violence, he learned that much, especially after Libertas. He also doesn't want to be a politician anymore, for the same reason.
"Maybe we could have gotten along, but I planned on making peace with Silco, which obviously is counter-productive to what we did." Although in many ways he thinks what they did is exactly why the man agreed to show up. Or he thought he would. Jayce knows it sounds insane set out like this, but he sighs. "I planned on offering the Undercity the independence they needed. Let them govern themselves, have their own trade routes, and not be under our thumb. I don't know if the Council will listen to me anymore, but I thought that was the only way."
Silco was evil and dangerous, but as far as Jayce knows, there was no one else in the Undercity that he could negotiate with. If there was, he would do it in a minute, to stay away from the man. He didn't know how they could destroy Silco and then offer the same thing to a broken leaderless Undercity. It was all shitty options at that point.
"Piltover has failed them, you said it yourself. I don't think we can fix it, and I don't think the Council would have actually bothered." So this was his way of trying to outflank their indifference. Maybe it sounded like a horrible deal with the devil, and it was, but Jayce thought of every possible angle. He just wanted to make things better, but the Council broke everything too much. It couldn't be pieced back together by them.
Jayce stands again and this time he pulls her into a hug. He could use the contact and his fears haven't gone away but she has managed to inspire some of his optimism and confidence again. "I plan to marry him, if we make it on the other end of this. Don't tell him, it'll be hard enough trying to get him to agree." Viktor agreeing is the problem, mostly because as much as he loves Jayce, it's just so formal of a thing. Much more Jayce's style, to want a commitment, ring, and wedding.