Maybe even Jayce didn't entirely realize how much he's changed until he said it out loud. Because Viktor can't guilt him. He sees that now, in only the conversation back and forth, that he isn't going to bend easily just because someone else wills him to. Not even the love of his life. It's as if everything he's been told by Viktor and his friends over the past few months have actually soaked into his mind.
It isn't that Jayce is without pity or understanding. Viktor's always wanted to make the world better for his people, Jayce has always known that. It was part of their deal together, part of their dream. But in a way, it's those last words from another Viktor that stay with him. Instead of great, maybe they can do good. And that's what he's been doing, bit by bit.
He leans back into Viktor's embrace, although very lightly as he's ridiculously heavy and Viktor is still fragile. Just enough to lean into the affection and soak it in. Jayce drops his hand to run along Viktor's arm around his waist. It's Viktor's constant love and support that has helped get him to this place where he isn't afraid that one disagreement or fight will mean the end of everything. They're stronger than that. He knows it. So he doesn't have to bend or beg.
"You're sounding like my particular brand of delusion." Jayce has reached a point where he can be dry about that. It's not that he has no dreams anymore, or he doesn't think they can accomplish incredible things. In fact, he has a lot of dreams, a lot of ideas. He is hopeful about what they can have here. It's just different from reaching for realistic goals instead of insisting that he can just will the perfect life into existence.
"What are you willing to give up in exchange for chasing that dream of everything? Because even if we can't have everything, we could have enough." Jayce turns his head so he can nuzzle at Viktor, pressing their foreheads together. "I love you. I'm sorry I can't give you what you want. But I'm not going to change my mind."
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It isn't that Jayce is without pity or understanding. Viktor's always wanted to make the world better for his people, Jayce has always known that. It was part of their deal together, part of their dream. But in a way, it's those last words from another Viktor that stay with him. Instead of great, maybe they can do good. And that's what he's been doing, bit by bit.
He leans back into Viktor's embrace, although very lightly as he's ridiculously heavy and Viktor is still fragile. Just enough to lean into the affection and soak it in. Jayce drops his hand to run along Viktor's arm around his waist. It's Viktor's constant love and support that has helped get him to this place where he isn't afraid that one disagreement or fight will mean the end of everything. They're stronger than that. He knows it. So he doesn't have to bend or beg.
"You're sounding like my particular brand of delusion." Jayce has reached a point where he can be dry about that. It's not that he has no dreams anymore, or he doesn't think they can accomplish incredible things. In fact, he has a lot of dreams, a lot of ideas. He is hopeful about what they can have here. It's just different from reaching for realistic goals instead of insisting that he can just will the perfect life into existence.
"What are you willing to give up in exchange for chasing that dream of everything? Because even if we can't have everything, we could have enough." Jayce turns his head so he can nuzzle at Viktor, pressing their foreheads together. "I love you. I'm sorry I can't give you what you want. But I'm not going to change my mind."