If I think too hard about what we're doing I'll feel really bad about it (Open/Closed)

[everybodysterrible]

Who: Abby or Bay + Guests.
When: August/September
What: Catch-All for various things.
Warnings: Abby swears, Bay is occasionally casually naked. Individual threads will get warning as they happen.

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[everybodysterrible]

"I think the problem is that the world broke you up, rather than you chose to. Meaning you're still in love with him, but can't be with him." It was the easiest way to phrase it. The simplest way to put it together. Abby's never dated, so she can't break-up. The closest she has is Max and Norah excommunicating her for a month. If Wilhelm's mystery boy cheated, or fell for someone else, or turned out to be a girl in elaborate and excellent drag, it'd be Wilhelm's choice to end it. He'd sever that link and it'd suck.

Choice isn't in this equation.

"If he was here, with us, in a world that doesn't have our bullshit, what would you honestly do?" Abby's got an answer in her head. She's made it clear what she feels the answer is. But Wilhelm made his answer clear too in how he spoke about this. The question was would he confirm or deny, and would Abby believe it.

[ordinar]

The question isn't easy to answer. It forces him to crack open a door he thought he'd finally shut for good. Dig his fingernails into a wound he thought had scabbed over.

"I don't know..." Wilhelm drags his hands down his face with a groan. "I guess I'd want to try to make up with him. If he was willing to give me a chance."

Take all the time you need, Simon had said. But you need to figure it out on your own. Since then, he has figured out a few things about the way he wants to live his life. He's done with pretending to be something he's not.

But getting over Simon was also one of the hardest things he's had to do. For nearly a year, Simon's pet goldfish stuck around in his Horizon, leftovers of Wilhelm's desire for things he should've known he couldn't have. It was only a few months ago that he finally brought himself to let them go. He doesn't want to open himself to that hurt all over again.

[everybodysterrible]

Abby will just- move to sit next to Wilhelm, and casually fall over so she's leaning against him. It's a hug-like move, Abby's not the best at showing connection the 'right ways' whatever the fuck that meant. Her move is made complicated by the height difference even sitting down. She picked up that she'd pried open an old wound, but to her, it was the sort of wound that needed examining to really ever close. She's seen what happens if you don't fix something, and let it fester.

Still, last thing she wanted right now was to open old wounds. Other than the ones she already opened at the paty.

"In spite of knowing the guy I was hooking up with at home is a piece of shit, I'd probably give him a chance if he showed up here. Provided Jesper doesn't murder him first." Which was a fun sentence to say out loud. Made more fun by knowing that between Jesper, Inej, Julie, and Nadine that one of them (or using Geralt as their proxy) would absolutely murder Press if he arrived in Abraxas. She'll process how she feels about that later. "Can't imagine it's easier if the guy is worth anything."

"Being fucked up over it just means you're human."