[open] july catchall

[techmaturgy]

Who: Viktor and special guests and you
When: throughout July & August
Where: Cadens, the Horizon, Nocwich
What: ah oh no we were indirectly responsible for bombing the castle
Warnings: war crimes

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[techmaturgy]

Oh.

[Viktor is not necessarily upset at Kyle, for letting it slip, nor did he expect to keep this a secret forever. It's just something he's still dealing with on his own terms, and isn't sure he can explain to anyone else, just yet. Especially not people who knew Jayce--who were invested in him and Jayce, and might think him unfaithful or otherwise dismissive, moving on at the first chance.

But that's not fair to Kyle, and he can't expect the other man to not say anything. He should approach this relationship on his own terms, too. If that means confiding in someone he considers a friend, Viktor can't begrudge him.]

I'm not--don't apologize.

[Viktor looks flustered, not sure whether to be ashamed or not.]

It's new. That's why I haven't said anything.

[carmesi]

( it's dreadful, those couple of long seconds before he finally tells her not to apologize. only then does wanda feel comfortable enough to lower her hand, grasp it tightly with her other hand; what a frail feeling, to think she'd messed up. )

No, that's understandable.

( she, too, had been quiet about her relationship with matt when it had first started. viktor doesn't know this, but she, too, felt anxious about what others would think—those who knew of her deep connection and love to vision.

wringing her fingers, wanda looks down, then up again at him. )

We can talk about something else if you prefer, but — I just want to say, that I'm happy for you.

[techmaturgy]

[She says it's understandable, but Viktor still feels some regret--both for failing to say anything about Kyle to anyone, and for moving on, ostensibly, from Jayce. The more logical part of him knows that this guilt is more about the bombing of the castle than his relationship with Kyle, but it compounds all the same.]

I loved Jayce. [He catches himself speaking in the past tense.] I still--

[He knows he doesn't need to justify himself to anyone. These are his choices, and he shouldn't have to defend them. But even though Wanda is uniquely positioned to understand his situation, and his pain, he can't quite finish the sentence.]

I needed something else. [He didn't know he could have something else, is what he really means.] And. I like him.

[carmesi]

( viktor is the one who breaches the subject first, and all wanda can offer, initially, as a friend, is to listen. )

I know you do.

( present tense, do a silent shielding from having to use the word 'love'. she still very much loves vision, but just because of that, just because she committed such horrible things in the name of that love she holds for him, would it be fair to herself—to matt—if she decided it just wasn't in the cards for her anymore?

the heart can break and hurt and renew itself all over again. )

I was involved with someone else before coming here, but he is no longer — alive. Matt was there when I needed someone. When I needed to love when I thought I wasn't worthy of it. ( then, a light smile. ) I worried so much about what those from my world would say, having known about Vision, but... they actually were really happy for me.

—you have every right, Viktor. Especially if you like him.

[techmaturgy]

[Viktor knows about Vision, both from Wanda and Tony--two very different perspectives on one man, such as he was. He can't claim to fully understand her loss, but it does often feel that his version of Jayce is so unreachable as to be dead. Maybe he will see some version of Jayce again, but things are different now, and he isn't certain he will allow himself to experience this hurt a second time.

Kyle is refreshing. They're both more clear-eyed about the fact that either of them might disappear at any moment. Still, his overall goal hasn't changed.]

If I can find a way back to him, I will. I still believe we need to solve the Summoning ritual.

[For the benefit of everyone, not just him.]

For now, though, this is...it's nice.

[Not to be alone.]