Open Log - I feel like I should be cackling

[inferiority_complex]

Who: Chris Halliwell and you (OPEN)
When: August till event
Where: Solvunn and Horizon
What: Witchy shit
Warnings: weird ass ingredients. Beware of pigs feet.

Will match prose or brackets. Plot with me over at caletara

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"Sansa, you haven't offended me. I'm just worried. That's it."

And now? Now he was more worried, about what she had been through, and what she struggled with her. And? Well, Chris was a crappy whitelighter. He didn't know what he was doing, he hadn't read the manual and this was so out of his usual that he felt like he was failing.

He curled his fingers around hers again, not letting go, trying to let her know with his hands that she still mattered to him, that he was worried because he cared.

"You haven't ruined anything. I'm just not that good at this. I just care about you Sansa. You deserve better. I just want you to realize that." There. He said it.

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Sansa blushes a bit at that because she suspects he means caring in a way that isn't simply friendship and perhaps something more and she has no idea what to do with that. In Westeros, courting is rare and something she never got a chance to experience even though she desperately wanted to.

"So you intend to court me? Is that what you mean?"

Sansa thinks it isn't so formal here and certainly not from the world Chris describes but she needs a word to put to it.

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Chris briefly wondered if Sansa would get the wrong impression if he just dove through the nearest window. Then he wondered if he could spontaneously manifest Piper's powers because he really, really, really needed a moment to think. How had she jumped from 'i care about you, to courting'? What was courting again? And how was that different than dating? Or simply, liking someone?

"Woah, back up. I know you've kind of explained courting but I don't really understand it. Why don't we just say I'd like to get to know you better? If you'd like to get to know me better?"

He sighed. "What's courting again?" He wasn't agreeing to marry her right?

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"Courting is getting to know someone when they aren't exactly a friend," Sansa says. "I always wanted to have that for myself but circumstances did not allow it. At home, it would either culminate in a marriage or a decision to be simply friends but I think here it can be something quite different. Marriage isn't the only path for a woman anymore."

Sansa is nervous, however, and her normally cool voice is trembling a bit. Perhaps she has frightened him away.

"I think we want the same thing by a different name."

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Chris is actually quite nervous too. The last relationship he was in ended with her death and him being gift wrapped into his brothers deadly care. He knows Sansa isn't that type of person but, does he really know her? She's a queen right?

"Okay....okay..." Yes, he was stalling, because wasn't sure what his decision was. This seemed like a huge leap between 'i think i like you, and 'courting'. Maybe it was the word? He did like her though......

"Yeah, maybe we do. I think the name is just tripping me up. Where I'm from, we call it dating."

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"Then we will call it by the word you know," Sansa says. "If that is a word you are comfortable with? I do not wish to frighten you away. I would like to get to know you better. I just am not normally so comfortable with men, is all."

This is a rarity for her and feels like the silly dreams she had as a girl. Perhaps those dreams weren't so silly?

"It does not have to be serious. I am different from you, I know this."

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"You're not going to frighten me away." Okay sure he was ready to jump out the window a few moments ago. Ignore that small failing. She could probably feel him mildly shaking through his hands, and he gripped hers tighter, careful not to hurt her.

"You deserve lovely things and I want to give them to you." Chris half wondered if they had made the coffee right because now all he could think of was that scene from Aladdin. Was his brain melting? Was he avoiding answering her? Yes, because he wasn't entirely sure just what he was feeling. Except that he cared.

"You're doing just fine. I'm nervous too. You're the first queen I've been around." He could almost hear Grams' voice in his head going 'she should get a dog instead. More loyal and they die sooner,' Thanks Grams. So much.

"Wait," He smiled. "Not normally? So you're comfortable with me?"

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"I imagine queens are quite rare," Sansa says, laughing softly and squeezing his hands back. "We have an excess of them in Westeros - or did - but I imagine there are few elsewhere. Not so many places have as much political turmoil and people declaring themselves lord paramount every few moments."

She bites her lip a little, nervous, and she hasn't been nervous in a while before today.

"I have never been with a normal person before. This is very new. I suppose I must get used to lovely things."

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Now would have been a good time for Chris to reveal several things. One. He was a whitelighter. Her whitelighter. And two, his brother declared himself king of the world. Was he going to say either of those things? Absolutely not. With any luck, it wouldn't bite him in the butt.

"I don't know a great many people who would call me normal, but it's a high compliment." He supposed he was normal though, at least in comparison to royalty or whatever she was.

"Sansa," Chris paused, trying to come up with the words he was thinking, to form them in his mouth, but he was struggling. "You deserve everything." That wasn't what he had been wanting to say, but that time would come. They needed to get used to eachother again, to circumvent that nervous, flitting circling they were doing. To settle again.

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"Perhaps I do deserve everything," Sansa says. "Those things will have to come in time, I think, because everything all at once would be very overwhelming for...us, I think. I come from such a different place with different expectations and I must learn new ones now."

Sansa does smile again, hoping to lift this conversation out of the mire it has wandered into and back into the happier place.

"Do those things I deserve include more of those sweets you gave me earlier? I rather like sweet things."

Wrap?

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"We'll take it slow. This is different for me too. And yeah, I think I can manage to produce a few more desserts for you." Since they were still holding hands, Chris got up, and pulled her up too.

"Now, your brother will be getting restless. Time to go find him before he thinks you've been abducted or something."