I know. I was trying to look out for you how I thought you needed it, when I should have been paying attention to what you actually needed.

[She'd heard Julie, but she hadn't listened. Not well enough, not to what Julie was implying and saying between the lines. She'd gotten so caught up in what she thought was important, what she thought would serve them best, and she hadn't taken Julie's fears seriously enough.]

I, um, I'm not used to looking out for other adults. I was treating you the way I'd treat one of my kids, and I can't do that. I won't do that anymore - or I'll try, you'll probably have to metaphorically smack me a few times. I'm just so used to being on my own and only having to worry about myself in the long run. But you're right.

[Nadine shakes her head a little, body language open rather than defensive. It hurts, yes, but Julie is right.]

I'm supposed to be queen, I'm supposed to look out for you and protect you and do right by you. I messed up badly this time. All I can do is promise to try and do better, if you'll let me. I know we didn't get off on the best foot, but...you're important to me, Julie. Not many people are, but I hate that I caused this and I've missed you. And I swear, I did not mean for anyone to come with me. I planned to go by myself, and...I should have stepped up and said 'no'.

[She can say 'no'. And she can certainly tell Lloyd what to do, even if she's loathe to do so. It just doesn't seem right to her, telling another grown adult what to do. But that is her right, technically.

Everything's so clear in hindsight.]