[ Julie lets out a bitter, dry laugh at that, a dark "Ha" that does nothing to conceal her pain. She's always been the least vital part of the organization, she knows that. Even the fucking psycho in his underwear was more important than she was. Despite all her efforts, her conniving, her trying, she was nothing but a reward for Lloyd, something that could be taken away and broken if he stepped out of line.
She tried so hard to be something more. Anything. But in the end, it was meaningless, a waste. He'd never seen her, never wanted her like he wanted the others. She doesn't know why, doesn't know what Lloyd or any of the others had that was so much more special than what she had. Even fucking Harold was more useful to him, had a purpose.
And now, if he comes back, he'll know everything and obliterate her without a thought. There's no reason to spare her.
Tears prick in the corners of her eyes and she presses the heels of her palms to them, pushes until she sees spots behind her eyelids. She inhales sharply through her nose and wills herself to not shake from the multitude of emotions she's feeling. ] Cool. Awesome. Just gotta be important to survive, irreplaceable. So... yeah.
[ So not me, it goes unsaid. Not important in Kansas, not important in Vegas, not important in Abraxas. All she can do is look good and make pencils. Her only hope is if he doesn't ever manage to get back.
Nadine says that she can accidentally turn into a wolf, like it's the same as accidentally leaving the fridge open, and Julie looks up at her with deep confusion. What the fuck? Could Flagg even do that? It's not out of the question, but why is that what he gave his wife? ]
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She tried so hard to be something more. Anything. But in the end, it was meaningless, a waste. He'd never seen her, never wanted her like he wanted the others. She doesn't know why, doesn't know what Lloyd or any of the others had that was so much more special than what she had. Even fucking Harold was more useful to him, had a purpose.
And now, if he comes back, he'll know everything and obliterate her without a thought. There's no reason to spare her.
Tears prick in the corners of her eyes and she presses the heels of her palms to them, pushes until she sees spots behind her eyelids. She inhales sharply through her nose and wills herself to not shake from the multitude of emotions she's feeling. ] Cool. Awesome. Just gotta be important to survive, irreplaceable. So... yeah.
[ So not me, it goes unsaid. Not important in Kansas, not important in Vegas, not important in Abraxas. All she can do is look good and make pencils. Her only hope is if he doesn't ever manage to get back.
Nadine says that she can accidentally turn into a wolf, like it's the same as accidentally leaving the fridge open, and Julie looks up at her with deep confusion. What the fuck? Could Flagg even do that? It's not out of the question, but why is that what he gave his wife? ]
Uh... I'm sorry, what?