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abraxaslogs2022-02-02 07:27 pm
nadine_he_loves) wrote in abraxaslogs2022-02-02 07:27 pm
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Who: Nadine, Julie, Lloyd
When: Beginning of February
What: Working through family stuff
Where: Nott
[Things have been tense and awkward since the Dimming, Nadine trying to give Julie her space and avoiding Lloyd more often than not - at least during the day, it's hard to avoid someone when you're currently sharing sleeping arrangements with them. It's been a difficult month, to say the least. And much, much too long.
And Nadine owes apologies to both of her companions - though one is far more pressing than the other. But she doesn't lock the door of the room she's been sharing with Lloyd, as she's been prone to do when she gets home from work - just to give herself a couple of hours to deal with her feelings as best as she can. He's been as helpful as he can be, and she's grateful for that, if she's been awful at expressing it lately. He deserves better. So she leaves the door unlocked and reads through a book on local medicinal herbs, hoping to get a chance to talk to him.
At some point, late in the evening, she makes her way to Julie's door. She has no intentions of trying to justify herself or excuse herself, but Julie deserves an apology. Even if the other woman doesn't forgive her, Nadine didn't do right by her and that needs an apology. She knocks as she announces herself, preparing to be turned away but hoping otherwise.]
Julie? Can we talk? Or at least...can I talk to you? I just want to apologize.
When: Beginning of February
What: Working through family stuff
Where: Nott
[Things have been tense and awkward since the Dimming, Nadine trying to give Julie her space and avoiding Lloyd more often than not - at least during the day, it's hard to avoid someone when you're currently sharing sleeping arrangements with them. It's been a difficult month, to say the least. And much, much too long.
And Nadine owes apologies to both of her companions - though one is far more pressing than the other. But she doesn't lock the door of the room she's been sharing with Lloyd, as she's been prone to do when she gets home from work - just to give herself a couple of hours to deal with her feelings as best as she can. He's been as helpful as he can be, and she's grateful for that, if she's been awful at expressing it lately. He deserves better. So she leaves the door unlocked and reads through a book on local medicinal herbs, hoping to get a chance to talk to him.
At some point, late in the evening, she makes her way to Julie's door. She has no intentions of trying to justify herself or excuse herself, but Julie deserves an apology. Even if the other woman doesn't forgive her, Nadine didn't do right by her and that needs an apology. She knocks as she announces herself, preparing to be turned away but hoping otherwise.]
Julie? Can we talk? Or at least...can I talk to you? I just want to apologize.
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If you want to be alone, I can leave you alone. If you want silent company, I can do that too. But I just want to say one thing...you have a lot of people who care about you, Julie. Really care about you. Not because of what you might be able to do for them, but just because you're you.
[That feels like something that might be important to Julie. She's painted a general picture of her childhood and prior life, and it didn't exactly seem filled with people who cared about her.
Nadine understands that, at least.]
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She wants to howl, to wail and bawl, but that's not something she can do here, can't allow her body to actually let go like that. She can dissolve in the Horizon, but she's far too distraught to get there right now, so instead, she just silently weeps into against her legs.
If asked, she wouldn't even be able to pinpoint which part of it all hurts this much. It's all just one big swirl of agony at the moment. ]