[ It's just as Mat thinks, it's all rhythm and patterns. It boils down to patience in some traps and pushing yourself in others. All of the obstacles work together in the end. There's a reason he hadn't given any ground rules to get through it, he wants to see what Mat comes up with.
When it happens, he's not disappointed. Anakin has to stop himself short of it staring in amazement at what he sees. The whole obstacle is shouded with black mist and not only stops but becomes coated in a thin layer of ice. He lets out a laugh of amazement, grabbing onto his friend's arm. ]
...Mist is full of water. Water freezes. All I can do reliably is make mist and freeze shit. I'm not getting my ass knocked out by that mad thing so I made my mist and froze it.
[Mat doesn't think it's that impressive. Creative, certainly, but it's just taking two things and putting them together. Literally the only two things he's confident with doing.
But still. There's that little sense of pride and satisfaction that comes sometimes in the moment. He hadthought cleverly. He's surprised Anakin. And more importantly he'd impressed Anakin, who's far more skilled and experienced at these things than him. That's something.
That's really something.]
Anyhow, no point in finishing now, as I'm just going to keep doing that, thereby defeating the whole point. But I do think I've earned myself a magic Horizon sword.
'All you can do'? Listen to you not even considering your potential. This is just a start, Mat. As all things are.
[ With a wave of his hand, he makes the obstacle disappear before looking back at Mat. He huffs a laugh, shaking his head. ]
Yeah, I'll say you have. This just means I have to give you some more challenge. It'll take me a few days to think of more. In the meantime, here. [ He unclips the saber from his belt and holds it out to Mat. It's definitely well-deserved and he can teach him lightsaber form later. ]
[Mat's just going to take the win and not argue. Yes, yes, it may just be the start but at the moment it is all that he can reliably do. But he's gaining control, that's what's important.
And he's won the fancy magic light sword. It doesn't matter that he doesn't know how to use a blade, it's the joy of winning. Particularly when he hadn't had high hopes - neither he nor Anakin had thought he stood much chance.]
Thank you, good sir! And now...if I may exert some control over your domain, I think we both deserve a break. And I know just how we ought to relax.
[As the space has been cleared with the vanishing of the obstacle course, Mat replaces it with a picturesque tiled pool of steaming violet colored water and a tray of refreshing drinks at its edge.]
[ Practice with the blade will come later if only to fulfill his own selfish desire for more sparring partners. Swordfighting is all well and good, but nothing gets the blood going quite like the electric feeling of lightsabers clashing. The fact that no one can be grievously injured in the Horizon because of them is also a plus.
He allows the change to his domain because he trusts Mat, watching with interest as everything melts away to form an ornate pool. Anakin raises an eyebrow, bending over to drag his fingers through the water. ]
[Mat just offers a grin. He'll never tire of the limitless potential of the Horizon, and all the ways he can make things unique.]
Now come on, let's have ourselves a nice soak. Magic always makes me feel drained and sore. Even here.
[Wasting no further time, he strips down and settles himself in the warm, pleasantly scented water. It's the perfect temperature, just enough to soothe agitated muscles without being uncomfortable.
He turns another grin to Anakin, eyes bright. In Mat's opinion, the other fellow is terrible at simply taking it easy and enjoying life. He's far too tense far too often. It's a damned shame, really. Poor man probably has tension aches on the regular. But Mat can do something about all of that.]
And just as you are my tutor in the ways of mystic powers, I am your guide to relaxing and enjoying life. So you're joining me. You can tell me more about the sort of things you can do with your own magic.
[ He doesn't play so much with the aspect that he can change literally anything to his color of choice in the Horizon, typically choosing to stick with how they come. Save for the blade of the lightsaber he'd created earlier in their training session. The blue hadn't felt right and while he knows that deep down the red is correct, he's not willing to accept that he's that lost to the Dark Side.
Following suit, Anakin sheds his own clothes and slips into the water. He lets out a pleased sigh as the warm water seeps into his muscles. Rolling his neck to release some of the tension, he settles near Mat. He laughs at the near-demand, expression amused as he regards his friend. ]
I'm capable of relaxing! We're even doing it right now, look at us go. What do you want to know?
[ While Anakin asks the question, he raises his hand slightly above the water to use the Force to float their drinks within arms reach, winking at Mat. ]
This? Anakin, this is the bare minimum when it comes to relaxing. And you, my friend...you are full of tensions. You need to release more steam more often. Trust me, it's bad for your health not to.
[And Mat has seen it before. All that tension kept inside, letting it simmer and build...it's not good. Mires the mind and all that. But this is a step in the right direction!]
Give me the chance, I'll make a proper hedonist out of you! But...ah, I don't know. Seems like you can do all different sorts of stuff with it. Is that hard? Making it do different things?
[His only context is the channeling he does himself, which he has found is very difficult to do different things with.]
[ Anakin scoffs, taking a sip of his drink. He's fully capable of relaxing, sitting in a nice warm pool with drinks is proof, right? ] Is that right? And how do you suggest I start doing that? I'm open to options, here.
[ He's pretty unsure that he could ever get to the level Mat is suggesting, but his friend seems to know more about it than he does, so he can follow the lead. ]
Honestly? Sometimes it feels like there's nothing you can't do with it. It makes me a better pilot, it makes me a stronger fighter. I could raze the mountain if I focused hard enough, and I can kill without laying a hand on someone if I needed to. All it takes is practice and a certain amount of talent.
[Mat shakes his head and takes a drink. Light! It's just like channeling, just like the Aes Sedai. Or what they were, before the White Tower did everything possible to try and regulate and rein in all that magical ability. Even Anakin, in his litany, admits how dangerous it is.]
I sometimes wonder if anyone ought have that much power. It doesn't seem right. Even the best of folks...feels like that much power, it'd be too easy to use it wrong. Back home there's so many rules Aes Sedai have to live by, so many oaths they have to take. And it only does so much good...
[A sigh. He hasn't seen anything like that here, no binding oaths to keep the mages in line. Or maybe it's just not something that's common knowledge. He's never asked.
But there are far more interesting and pleasant things to discuss.]
And I am right about you and all your tensions. And holding all that power doesn't help, just adds to your sense of stress and responsibility. To be quite honest with you, my dear friend, you need to fuck. Badly. A good casual fuck'll set you right.
[ The Jedi always preached about the Light Side of the Force, how it is a beacon of good and hope, and to fall to the Dark is from a weak mind or heart. Yet Anakin had always leaned a little closer to it than everyone was comfortable with. To him, his emotions and attachments made him strong, and gave him something worth fighting for. Anakin hums at his question, contemplating.
He's always wanted more and he knew he shouldn't. If it could stop people from dying, what was truly the harm in it? ]
Perhaps they're not as knowledgeable about it as they seem. To truly understand that kind of power, it makes sense that you would want to know it yourself.
[ Well, congratulations, Mat, the distraction is a success. Anakin sputters out an incredulous laugh, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand. ]
Oh, is that all? I hate to bear the bad news, but I've never done casual before. [ He's never been casual about anything in his entire life. ]
[Mat grins, lifting his drink to emphasize his point.]
I mean it. Look at me. Look at how at ease I am at any given moment. That is thanks to my many casual lovers. I regularly let off steam in the form of burying myself quite literally in something fun and cathartic. Or am buried in, I have little preference, it all serves the same purpose.
[Sex is just fun and good for all involved. Lets off steam, works up a sweat, lets a person share their burdens for a brief time without even having to speak on them or acknowledge them...
Anakin is really missing out. No wonder he's the way he is.]
And it's just sex. Sex and romance do not need to go hand in hand, I have sex without any sort of romance nearly every time I do it. And what romance there is...it's for fun. It's...a play act. Fuck's sake, Anakin, when's the last time you broke your arrow? Do you even ever have a go at yourself?
[ The Jedi forbid attachments, but that went against everything he already knew and felt. He can at least understand that sex and romance aren't mutually exclusive, but it never felt that way for him. There was only ever Padmé in his mind, so separating the two is a bit more difficult. And look how well that worked out for him..
It's hard, knowing what will happen and how he'd failed that led to it. It doesn't stop the feeling of betrayal or that deep, selfish love he still feels. No one will ever be able to be that part of his heart again, that much he's positive of. ]
I've had other things on my mind.
[ Mat knows the answer to that question since they've shared a bedroom and sometimes a bed since the beginning. On the nights that Mat goes elsewhere is much the same as any other, pleasure has been on the backburner since coming to Thorne. Anakin's focus has been just living as he wanted without orders, without expectation, and learning more about his new home. It's not even that he looks down on it, he's happy that Mat is happy to lead his life as a hedonist. Can't fault him for his hookups or who he chooses to be in his bed. There's no harm in it.
That doesn't stop him from really thinking about the question though. ]
..I don't think I should answer that.
[ Certainly before coming here, and the times that he and his wife could meet to be intimate were few and far between. That, and she'd been very pregnant when he'd finished his last campaign so.. Yeah it's been a long time. Not really a great place to get your rocks off as a General in charge of a battalion that operates at all hours. Duty came before anything else. ]
Mmhmm. Look...s'not natural to keep all that pent up. You've got to drain the dam now and again. It's literally how we're made. You don't feel comfortable just messing around with someone you aren't sweet on, fine. Then just have at yourself. Take half an hour for you time.
[Mat can't imagine it taking any longer than that, certainly not for Anakin who's gone so long without that blissful release. But light does the fellow need it! Sort himself out proper.]
But I do encourage you to take a good hard look at your approach. You're denying yourself a great deal by limiting your physical pleasures. It's just as fun with a friend, I can promise you that.
It's not even that. I have only thought about one woman since I was nine. Not romantically, at first, but then what we had had to remain secret. In the midst of a war, there weren't many opportunities for alone time.
[ Anakin sets his drink down on the edge of the pool and sinks a bit further into the water. Thinking back on it, it hadn't seemed like an issue at the time because his mind had always been hyperfocused on the war effort or being able to see his wife where they could. He mulls over what Mat has to say, and honestly? He makes some valid points..
Why deny himself anything that he wants? Even now, he's still got the Jedi's ideals sitting in the back of his mind where he should be free of it. They're such a fundamental part of who he is that it's hard to let it go.. But he'd made his choice, what does it matter in the grand scheme of things? ]
[But Mat's laughing as he says it, and shaking his head with a sort of fondness.]
He hung his heart on one woman. A very fine and lovely woman I consider a friend, but light help him, the man let so many opportunities for fun pass him by....
[He isn't even referring to himself. It had never been quite like that, between him and Rand. How much of that was Rand's heart being claimed, he really doesn't know. There's a sense he gets, when a fellow may be interested, and he'd never felt that off of Rand. Despite the times they'd been assumed to be a couple. But he'd seen plenty of lovely ladies from Tarren Ferry or Long Field make eyes at his best friend to no results.]
Alright I can tell you from a great deal of experience. I only sleep with friends, and just as friends. Look at what I've got with Rhy, what I've got with Jesper. We always have fun, we fuck a great deal, but it's never messy or complicated because we're none of us in love with one another. I mean of course I love them both, same as I love you. As dear and beloved friends. You can love someone and sleep with them without it being romantic or an expression of romantic love. Look at it this way. Could you eat nothing but buttered bread, all your life? Buttered bread is wonderful, very tasty. But think of all the other things out there you could try...
It's not as if I don't know the distinction. Doing what I did, you experience a lot of different cultures and ways of life. I wasn't blind to it. It just wasn't for me since I was married and never had eyes for anyone else. She was everything to me, and I would have burned the world for her if that's what she wanted.
[ It hadn't been and things escalated from there, but that was the past and Anakin has no interest in scrutinizing what went wrong when things are so nice right now. He splashes his face with a bit of water, scrubbing at his eyes to help him focus on the here and now. No dwelling allowed. ]
I admit that it does sound appealing when you put it like that. Maybe where I went wrong was putting my entire soul into loving someone. I can't say that I'm going to be capable of keeping the two separate forever, but what's the harm in trying?
[Mat keeps the rest of his thoughts to himself. That sort of obsession...that's just dangerous. A fellow loses himself in someone else. He can't imagine it. Perhaps he's simply never loved anyone more than himself. Which is a neat trick, considering how much he loathes himself beneath it all.]
Look, despite my vehement commentary, we're not here to get into right or wrong. You did things...differently. You were living a different life. You're living this one now, and so you can do things you wouldn't have. So...what do you like?
[Seems the smartest place to start. He hasn't the faintest idea what Anakin finds attractive.]
What gets your blood up and your breath quick? Just the ladies? A certain type of lady? Hair color, eye color, that sort of thing?
[ Anakin frowns at the way Mat puts it. To him, it never felt like that. Who wouldn't have gone to the ends of the galaxy for the person that they loved? He is right, though. Anakin was living a different life before, and now he can choose something different. ]
You're right, I need to stop dwelling. [ He leans back, resting his head on the edge of the pool, staring up at the sky in concentration. What does he like? There are traits he finds admirable, but as far as physical appearance goes? From somewhere that extends past 'human', it's always easier to simply say 'personality'. However, between Padmé and his infatuation with Yennefer, it's easy to see the bias. ]
Someone who's passionate about what they believe in. Pretty eyes? Dark hair? I don't know that gender really matters to me.
You do realize you're just describing me, don't you? And if you don't know if gender matters, then it doesn't. You'd know if it did.
[That has been his experience, anyhow. Either the idea was rejected or the possibility was accepted. That makes things easier, anyhow. Always nice to have a wide pool to draw from.
Though he isn't certain if Anakin truly has a type or he's doing that thing where whatever's in eyesight gets into the mind. Mat's the only other living thing around, and he happens to have dark hair and pretty eyes. At least he thinks they're pretty.]
[ Anakin smirks, though his expression shifts to something more thoughtful. He studies Mat's face with more intensity than probably needed. He knows his friend is certainly handsome, but he'd never had to consider something like his own personal attraction to him before.
Huh. ]
When you're from a place where your options don't stop at 'human', it seems silly to be hung up by something like gender.
[ He doesn't really know if it's a type, exactly, but there has to be a little correlation, right? Mat is definitely easy on the eyes, and they're already friendly... ]
Suppose that makes sense. Don't have a variety of options where I come from, then being in a tiny village...my options were very slim indeed.
[Most of his dalliances were had at festival time, when all the little villages of the Two Rivers came together to celebrate. Sometimes there were as many as a hundred and half folks, all in one place! Of course that's hardly impressive now...]
And if that's your attempts at flirting, I should let you know, I'm no great lover of the coy approach.
[Either employing it or being on the receiving end. Just leaves too much up to interpretation and guessing. He hates having to dance around some double-layered conversation just to determine if someone's interested in a roll in the sheets or not. He'd assumed Anakin was not, and so never made much effort to test if he's right or not.
The fact that everyone is so limited, even in a place like this, is still strange to me.
[ Anakin chuckles, topping off his drink and setting the empty flute aside. ] No? And why not? You certainly deserve the chase. You should let yourself be wooed every once in a while.
[ Then again, it's not as though they're speaking of romance. They've made that distinction quite clear at this point. He still thinks his own point is valid, though. Mat does deserve to be wooed. ]
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When it happens, he's not disappointed. Anakin has to stop himself short of it staring in amazement at what he sees. The whole obstacle is shouded with black mist and not only stops but becomes coated in a thin layer of ice. He lets out a laugh of amazement, grabbing onto his friend's arm. ]
What did you do?! This is amazing!
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[Mat doesn't think it's that impressive. Creative, certainly, but it's just taking two things and putting them together. Literally the only two things he's confident with doing.
But still. There's that little sense of pride and satisfaction that comes sometimes in the moment. He hadthought cleverly. He's surprised Anakin. And more importantly he'd impressed Anakin, who's far more skilled and experienced at these things than him. That's something.
That's really something.]
Anyhow, no point in finishing now, as I'm just going to keep doing that, thereby defeating the whole point. But I do think I've earned myself a magic Horizon sword.
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[ With a wave of his hand, he makes the obstacle disappear before looking back at Mat. He huffs a laugh, shaking his head. ]
Yeah, I'll say you have. This just means I have to give you some more challenge. It'll take me a few days to think of more. In the meantime, here. [ He unclips the saber from his belt and holds it out to Mat. It's definitely well-deserved and he can teach him lightsaber form later. ]
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And he's won the fancy magic light sword. It doesn't matter that he doesn't know how to use a blade, it's the joy of winning. Particularly when he hadn't had high hopes - neither he nor Anakin had thought he stood much chance.]
Thank you, good sir! And now...if I may exert some control over your domain, I think we both deserve a break. And I know just how we ought to relax.
[As the space has been cleared with the vanishing of the obstacle course, Mat replaces it with a picturesque tiled pool of steaming violet colored water and a tray of refreshing drinks at its edge.]
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He allows the change to his domain because he trusts Mat, watching with interest as everything melts away to form an ornate pool. Anakin raises an eyebrow, bending over to drag his fingers through the water. ]
Well, I've never seen water this color before.
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[Mat just offers a grin. He'll never tire of the limitless potential of the Horizon, and all the ways he can make things unique.]
Now come on, let's have ourselves a nice soak. Magic always makes me feel drained and sore. Even here.
[Wasting no further time, he strips down and settles himself in the warm, pleasantly scented water. It's the perfect temperature, just enough to soothe agitated muscles without being uncomfortable.
He turns another grin to Anakin, eyes bright. In Mat's opinion, the other fellow is terrible at simply taking it easy and enjoying life. He's far too tense far too often. It's a damned shame, really. Poor man probably has tension aches on the regular. But Mat can do something about all of that.]
And just as you are my tutor in the ways of mystic powers, I am your guide to relaxing and enjoying life. So you're joining me. You can tell me more about the sort of things you can do with your own magic.
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...You know what, that's on me. You're right.
[ He doesn't play so much with the aspect that he can change literally anything to his color of choice in the Horizon, typically choosing to stick with how they come. Save for the blade of the lightsaber he'd created earlier in their training session. The blue hadn't felt right and while he knows that deep down the red is correct, he's not willing to accept that he's that lost to the Dark Side.
Following suit, Anakin sheds his own clothes and slips into the water. He lets out a pleased sigh as the warm water seeps into his muscles. Rolling his neck to release some of the tension, he settles near Mat. He laughs at the near-demand, expression amused as he regards his friend. ]
I'm capable of relaxing! We're even doing it right now, look at us go. What do you want to know?
[ While Anakin asks the question, he raises his hand slightly above the water to use the Force to float their drinks within arms reach, winking at Mat. ]
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[And Mat has seen it before. All that tension kept inside, letting it simmer and build...it's not good. Mires the mind and all that. But this is a step in the right direction!]
Give me the chance, I'll make a proper hedonist out of you! But...ah, I don't know. Seems like you can do all different sorts of stuff with it. Is that hard? Making it do different things?
[His only context is the channeling he does himself, which he has found is very difficult to do different things with.]
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[ He's pretty unsure that he could ever get to the level Mat is suggesting, but his friend seems to know more about it than he does, so he can follow the lead. ]
Honestly? Sometimes it feels like there's nothing you can't do with it. It makes me a better pilot, it makes me a stronger fighter. I could raze the mountain if I focused hard enough, and I can kill without laying a hand on someone if I needed to. All it takes is practice and a certain amount of talent.
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[Mat shakes his head and takes a drink. Light! It's just like channeling, just like the Aes Sedai. Or what they were, before the White Tower did everything possible to try and regulate and rein in all that magical ability. Even Anakin, in his litany, admits how dangerous it is.]
I sometimes wonder if anyone ought have that much power. It doesn't seem right. Even the best of folks...feels like that much power, it'd be too easy to use it wrong. Back home there's so many rules Aes Sedai have to live by, so many oaths they have to take. And it only does so much good...
[A sigh. He hasn't seen anything like that here, no binding oaths to keep the mages in line. Or maybe it's just not something that's common knowledge. He's never asked.
But there are far more interesting and pleasant things to discuss.]
And I am right about you and all your tensions. And holding all that power doesn't help, just adds to your sense of stress and responsibility. To be quite honest with you, my dear friend, you need to fuck. Badly. A good casual fuck'll set you right.
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He's always wanted more and he knew he shouldn't. If it could stop people from dying, what was truly the harm in it? ]
Perhaps they're not as knowledgeable about it as they seem. To truly understand that kind of power, it makes sense that you would want to know it yourself.
[ Well, congratulations, Mat, the distraction is a success. Anakin sputters out an incredulous laugh, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand. ]
Oh, is that all? I hate to bear the bad news, but I've never done casual before. [ He's never been casual about anything in his entire life. ]
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[Mat grins, lifting his drink to emphasize his point.]
I mean it. Look at me. Look at how at ease I am at any given moment. That is thanks to my many casual lovers. I regularly let off steam in the form of burying myself quite literally in something fun and cathartic. Or am buried in, I have little preference, it all serves the same purpose.
[Sex is just fun and good for all involved. Lets off steam, works up a sweat, lets a person share their burdens for a brief time without even having to speak on them or acknowledge them...
Anakin is really missing out. No wonder he's the way he is.]
And it's just sex. Sex and romance do not need to go hand in hand, I have sex without any sort of romance nearly every time I do it. And what romance there is...it's for fun. It's...a play act. Fuck's sake, Anakin, when's the last time you broke your arrow? Do you even ever have a go at yourself?
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It's hard, knowing what will happen and how he'd failed that led to it. It doesn't stop the feeling of betrayal or that deep, selfish love he still feels. No one will ever be able to be that part of his heart again, that much he's positive of. ]
I've had other things on my mind.
[ Mat knows the answer to that question since they've shared a bedroom and sometimes a bed since the beginning. On the nights that Mat goes elsewhere is much the same as any other, pleasure has been on the backburner since coming to Thorne. Anakin's focus has been just living as he wanted without orders, without expectation, and learning more about his new home. It's not even that he looks down on it, he's happy that Mat is happy to lead his life as a hedonist. Can't fault him for his hookups or who he chooses to be in his bed. There's no harm in it.
That doesn't stop him from really thinking about the question though. ]
..I don't think I should answer that.
[ Certainly before coming here, and the times that he and his wife could meet to be intimate were few and far between. That, and she'd been very pregnant when he'd finished his last campaign so.. Yeah it's been a long time. Not really a great place to get your rocks off as a General in charge of a battalion that operates at all hours. Duty came before anything else. ]
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[Mat can't imagine it taking any longer than that, certainly not for Anakin who's gone so long without that blissful release. But light does the fellow need it! Sort himself out proper.]
But I do encourage you to take a good hard look at your approach. You're denying yourself a great deal by limiting your physical pleasures. It's just as fun with a friend, I can promise you that.
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[ Anakin sets his drink down on the edge of the pool and sinks a bit further into the water. Thinking back on it, it hadn't seemed like an issue at the time because his mind had always been hyperfocused on the war effort or being able to see his wife where they could. He mulls over what Mat has to say, and honestly? He makes some valid points..
Why deny himself anything that he wants? Even now, he's still got the Jedi's ideals sitting in the back of his mind where he should be free of it. They're such a fundamental part of who he is that it's hard to let it go.. But he'd made his choice, what does it matter in the grand scheme of things? ]
Is that so?
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[But Mat's laughing as he says it, and shaking his head with a sort of fondness.]
He hung his heart on one woman. A very fine and lovely woman I consider a friend, but light help him, the man let so many opportunities for fun pass him by....
[He isn't even referring to himself. It had never been quite like that, between him and Rand. How much of that was Rand's heart being claimed, he really doesn't know. There's a sense he gets, when a fellow may be interested, and he'd never felt that off of Rand. Despite the times they'd been assumed to be a couple. But he'd seen plenty of lovely ladies from Tarren Ferry or Long Field make eyes at his best friend to no results.]
Alright I can tell you from a great deal of experience. I only sleep with friends, and just as friends. Look at what I've got with Rhy, what I've got with Jesper. We always have fun, we fuck a great deal, but it's never messy or complicated because we're none of us in love with one another. I mean of course I love them both, same as I love you. As dear and beloved friends. You can love someone and sleep with them without it being romantic or an expression of romantic love. Look at it this way. Could you eat nothing but buttered bread, all your life? Buttered bread is wonderful, very tasty. But think of all the other things out there you could try...
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[ It hadn't been and things escalated from there, but that was the past and Anakin has no interest in scrutinizing what went wrong when things are so nice right now. He splashes his face with a bit of water, scrubbing at his eyes to help him focus on the here and now. No dwelling allowed. ]
I admit that it does sound appealing when you put it like that. Maybe where I went wrong was putting my entire soul into loving someone. I can't say that I'm going to be capable of keeping the two separate forever, but what's the harm in trying?
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[Mat keeps the rest of his thoughts to himself. That sort of obsession...that's just dangerous. A fellow loses himself in someone else. He can't imagine it. Perhaps he's simply never loved anyone more than himself. Which is a neat trick, considering how much he loathes himself beneath it all.]
Look, despite my vehement commentary, we're not here to get into right or wrong. You did things...differently. You were living a different life. You're living this one now, and so you can do things you wouldn't have. So...what do you like?
[Seems the smartest place to start. He hasn't the faintest idea what Anakin finds attractive.]
What gets your blood up and your breath quick? Just the ladies? A certain type of lady? Hair color, eye color, that sort of thing?
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You're right, I need to stop dwelling. [ He leans back, resting his head on the edge of the pool, staring up at the sky in concentration. What does he like? There are traits he finds admirable, but as far as physical appearance goes? From somewhere that extends past 'human', it's always easier to simply say 'personality'. However, between Padmé and his infatuation with Yennefer, it's easy to see the bias. ]
Someone who's passionate about what they believe in. Pretty eyes? Dark hair? I don't know that gender really matters to me.
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You do realize you're just describing me, don't you? And if you don't know if gender matters, then it doesn't. You'd know if it did.
[That has been his experience, anyhow. Either the idea was rejected or the possibility was accepted. That makes things easier, anyhow. Always nice to have a wide pool to draw from.
Though he isn't certain if Anakin truly has a type or he's doing that thing where whatever's in eyesight gets into the mind. Mat's the only other living thing around, and he happens to have dark hair and pretty eyes. At least he thinks they're pretty.]
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[ Anakin smirks, though his expression shifts to something more thoughtful. He studies Mat's face with more intensity than probably needed. He knows his friend is certainly handsome, but he'd never had to consider something like his own personal attraction to him before.
Huh. ]
When you're from a place where your options don't stop at 'human', it seems silly to be hung up by something like gender.
[ He doesn't really know if it's a type, exactly, but there has to be a little correlation, right? Mat is definitely easy on the eyes, and they're already friendly... ]
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[Most of his dalliances were had at festival time, when all the little villages of the Two Rivers came together to celebrate. Sometimes there were as many as a hundred and half folks, all in one place! Of course that's hardly impressive now...]
And if that's your attempts at flirting, I should let you know, I'm no great lover of the coy approach.
[Either employing it or being on the receiving end. Just leaves too much up to interpretation and guessing. He hates having to dance around some double-layered conversation just to determine if someone's interested in a roll in the sheets or not. He'd assumed Anakin was not, and so never made much effort to test if he's right or not.
Apparently he might have been wrong. Fancy that.]
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[ Anakin chuckles, topping off his drink and setting the empty flute aside. ] No? And why not? You certainly deserve the chase. You should let yourself be wooed every once in a while.
[ Then again, it's not as though they're speaking of romance. They've made that distinction quite clear at this point. He still thinks his own point is valid, though. Mat does deserve to be wooed. ]