I know it sounds impossible

[hextechhead]

WHO: Jayce Talis and you
WHAT: A catch-all featuring reaction to Libertas/war and journey/help to Libertas
WHERE: Mostly in Cadens and Libertas, one Horizon prompt
WHEN: September
WARNINGS: General reaction to violence (obviously) and PTSD in comments.





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[hextechhead]

Jayce is also personally concerned with what they might do to manipulate the situation. Holding Viktor's cure over his head would be enough to get Jayce to do anything, but he is willing to compromise himself, it's been done before, he has no high road to worry about. Especially with Viktor in his arms, this man so important and precious to him, Jayce would tear apart the world to keep him alive. He knows that means they have a huge weak spot. They are more at risk than most, with something so important held over their head.

"As long as we stick together, I know we'll find a way to get through this." He has to be confident about that, he has to believe in it. Jayce traces a lot of the root of some of his problems to when he stopped listening to Viktor, so he isn't going to make that mistake again.

"We can still do good. We may not be able to stop the war, but we can always do whatever we can to help people in the meantime. Like in Libertas." That has to be the next focal point. The next thing they can do. And after that? After that, Jayce has no idea. For once he is not the person looking into the future because he likes only seeing the positive future. Not the one layered with so many negative possibilities.

[techmaturgy]

The worst part is that he's not sure what other choice they have--he can't not work. Even if his life didn't depend on it, Viktor naturally wants to create, invent, improve. Sitting idle, even when kept here against his will, is unacceptable to him.

He'd wondered, often, why they would bother summoning him here if it would only be for a short time. Cadens' government certainly hasn't offered him anything by way of a cure (not that he thinks he would take it), implying that it means very little to them, whether he lives or dies. Maybe he's here simply as leverage for Jayce, who he knows would do anything for him, on top of being the suggestible one. Wouldn't that figure.

Viktor reminds himself that they're a united front, now. That should make all the difference, and yet he can't quite believe it. He pulls away, finally, but only so he can sit down on the bed, looking defeated.

"I'd almost rather be home." At least then he'd feel like he could do something. "Wouldn't you?"

[hextechhead]

Jayce still doesn't believe that they intentionally brought them the same way Viktor does, but it would make some horrible amount of sense if they did it to use them against each other. Viktor's stronger than he is, Jayce is the weak link. If they come to him threatening Viktor's safety, he will fold immediately. They both know that, so it doesn't need to be said. He also knows that Viktor would be furious if he ends up being the leverage, but they can't react until something happens. Jayce wants to take one thing at a time.

The two of them are in for now, they can check in with people in a little while, so Jayce sits on the bed next to Viktor and then just lies back, staring up at the ceiling. This is a question and a topic he has intentionally avoided all this time because he knows they disagree. Home, where he's ruined his life, where Viktor is dying without question? He's in no hurry for that.

"No," he says, finally. "Not until we have a guarantee that we can go back with all our new memories and skills intact. Or your cure, when we finish it." Jayce thinks that is perfectly reasonable. He would give up his healing and magic to go back for Viktor, but only if his life was saved. He will take no chances with Viktor's life. "From what I can tell people are just put back where they were taken. We'd lose all of it." Them.

[techmaturgy]

Yes, he's heard all of this. Spoken to people who were apparently sent back and returned, with no memory of this place as they moved along their proper timeline, in their own world. He has no idea how this could work for them, even though they're only separated by a matter of days. Would Viktor have a chance to get things right, with the Hexcore? Would his own future be different from the one Jayce experienced? There's no real way to tell. All he can really do is the best he can, here, with what he has.

Viktor wants to tell himself that it wouldn't matter if they were sent back home, with none of what they've learned. At least home is a known quantity. There's investment. There's a working Hexcore that Viktor still believes in, not having yet made the horrible mistake that Jayce is convinced he makes. Returning isn't necessarily a death sentence, and at least they wouldn't be fighting someone else's war.

"The Summoning ritual. That could be part of it."

Of course, he doesn't really know that. But he and Jayce found each other once, so they could do it again. He knows, now, how long the feelings have been there--isn't getting back to where they are now just a matter of probability? Naïve, perhaps. Viktor is well aware that it's the very specific circumstances of this place that brought them together. Back in Piltover, with Jayce as a Councilor and Viktor immersed in his work, it seems unlikely. He's reminded, again, of everything he hoped to do, and how allowing himself the indulgence of a relationship would only hinder his goals.

Would he do that? Would he erase all of this, with Jayce, if it meant doing what he's supposed to be doing--helping the Undercity? The fact that he can't answer this for himself, not definitively, unsettles something in him. Makes him feel selfish all over again. If returning home is a possibility, then maybe it would be for the best, to forget.

Viktor drags his good leg up onto the mattress and leans forward on it, resting his chin on his knee in apparent thought. A suitable reply doesn't come.

[hextechhead]

All Jayce has to go back to is disaster. Some of it made by him. He's going to lose Viktor. He's going to lose his position, possibly all of his work. It's possible the peace with Zaun happens, and if so, he can be thankful about that, but it won't stop the other parts from being true. There is no happy ending for him, and maybe he doesn't deserve one, but that doesn't mean he is actively going to go searching for misery. He is not that much of a masochist.

Jayce already knows where this all ends up so he doesn't think an argument needs to happen. In the end, he'll do what Viktor wants. What is he going to do? Try to live here without him? He would rather die. It's not his choice and maybe lying there on their bed, in this home they made together, he's a little angry about it. He doesn't respond to what Viktor says because he thinks it's foolish. It's not about the spell. They are not in control of what happens right now. They can try to figure it out over time, but no one in over a year has managed to get the spell to work for the Summoned.

When Jayce is angry, he sees red, but he's more likely to get depressed, to hit low lows, and that is where he feels himself creeping toward again. It wouldn't be disconnected like before, at least, but he does feel that sort of sad acceptance fall over him. It's stupid, to wish it was as simple for Viktor as it was for him. But feelings can be very stupid like that. He knows the silence between them is being filled with all the things they aren't saying, and as two geniuses, they are well aware of that.

Words appear over his eyelids and it's Dean's post. Right after it happens, and he sees words shooting around, causing all kinds of feelings. Jayce blinks away a tear and sits up. "Network post. We can check in on Nadine there." He gets off the bed. Apparently he would rather just brush by this instead of deal with it, but that is his way. "Ask her what she needs, it'll give us something to do."

Jayce is going to read all of it, which is not really good for him, considering, but he is mostly going to stay out of it. He brushes his fingers in a light caress through Viktor's hair as he passes him and leaves the bedroom.