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Lucifer ([personal profile] thedevilwhorose) wrote in [community profile] abraxaslogs2023-01-01 12:53 am

am I a villain or a saint?

Who: Lucifer, others
When: December January shhhh
Where: Thorne, the Horizon
What: Closed for the moment; will open more later
Warnings: Wrathful teenagers, discussions of violence... Not in the same thread.



(Closed for the moment.)
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[personal profile] outwear 2023-01-18 02:30 am (UTC)(link)
It's perhaps fitting that Sam's appearance in Wanda's space is some combination of curiosity mixed with the same sort of open air desire as Lucifer. Since arriving Sam has had trouble fully finding his bearings — Dean being a year on and from the past, Jo dead-but-not, Cas and his son (from what Sam's been told) — all seems inexplicable but genuine, and yet...

And yet the disquiet within him is the same as ever.

Sam reeks of distance. He wears his arcana well, keeping to himself in the same ways as always: share a concern, share a smile, say and do what's needed and then retreat. A book, an odd job, a walk — whatever it takes.

He's enjoying the spiraling solitude when he invades the territory of those vocal crows and soon finds himself under the devil's purview. His skin crawls the moment the realization hits him. For a moment he's not sure the voice isn't in his head, but the soft crush of greenery heralds the presence above of something from below.

Stilled, hands already balled into fists without even realizing, he lifts his gaze and can feel how he's breathing carefully out of his mouth in anticipation of a fight.

"That tells me a lot about your influence," he counters as he takes several steps more in order to get a better view. He shrugs, plays it off. Tries to, at least. "Personally, I've been avoiding you," Sam says.
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[personal profile] outwear 2023-02-08 05:07 am (UTC)(link)
For Sam's part, he has no fear of fighting Lucifer. Wanda's domain aside, there's a tentativeness he doesn't doubt appears in all Summoned that prevents the worst of the petty grudges from being actively played out. That had been why the boat altercation had only remained that and not transformed into an incident as far as Sam's concerned.

"The truth hurts," he offers, mildly. "I don't see a point in lying about it."

Nevermind that he was anticipating this moment. The creeping skin, the sparking brain, the urge to pick up a stone and act out a little aggression for the sake of— well, his whole damn life, not to mention the rest.

Sam gestures. "I'm going this way." A fact that he demonstrates immediately; however, it's not not an invitation. Lucifer, after all, is an inevitability at this point as far as Sam's concerned. He can't possibly bypass this opportunity.
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[personal profile] outwear 2023-02-10 05:26 am (UTC)(link)
Sam stops. He considers this, watching as Lucifer controls the crows that were pervasive but had seemed otherwise incapable of taking sides before now. The breath that escapes him might be a tad longer than necessary — not a sigh, but a hair closer than before.Turning to look around, he wonders how far he'll get despite Lucifer's assurances, but decides instead to take the obvious bait.

He thinks about Dean, the Mark of Cain and the First Blade and frowns. He'd come this way seeking a little clarity and wonders now if this wasn't some kind of inelegant trap he's walked himself right into. Then again, he can leave at any time, can't he?

"None that I know of, no," he finally answers. The tension is ticking up and Sam's jaw tightens, the muscle twitching. He watches Lucifer's legs swinging and he can't help but imagine a pathetic pigtail pulling playground bully.

"What, did you want me to thank you?" He leaves that sit, a timestamp for Lucifer to confirm Sam was, in fact, on the Arcanis as he'd suspected. It had gotten back to him quickly what Lucifer had done and it only solidifies Sam's thoughts regarding Lucifer's bleeding gums: Abraxas pulled his teeth just like everyone else.
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[personal profile] outwear 2023-02-10 05:48 am (UTC)(link)
He's not so petulant as to walk away, but he considers it again if only because of how Lucifer plants himself familiarly in the back of Sam's mind. Worse yet is to be on the same page — a fact that Sam is bemoaning amidst what amounts to a stomach grumble.

(How can he be hungry at a time like this? Did he imagine himself that way or is it just the churn of upset expressing itself as something recognizable in this landscape? Couldn't he leave? Why doesn't he just leave?)

"Glad we're on the same page. Did you follow me here just for that?" he asks, assuming. It's easy to assume when Lucifer's involved because even if he's wrong, Sam doesn't feel bad about it.
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[personal profile] outwear 2023-02-10 06:25 am (UTC)(link)
Sam huffs. "Does she know that?"

He can't help but think about his short conversation with Jack Townsend, how he'd sort of alluded to being friends-but-not with Lucifer. And would he be surprised? No. The angel has a way of insinuating himself into lives, existing in such a way that you think you might want him around, or maybe he just looks too lonely to leave be.

Is that the reason Sam's still here? He convinces himself it's little more than morbid fascination, if anything at all.
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[personal profile] outwear 2023-02-10 06:50 am (UTC)(link)
"I'm glad she's the master of her domain," he says, rueful in the way a person can be only if they've had issues with mastering their own domain, so to speak. And the fact that the issue particularly relevant to that happens to be dangling like a limp dick over his head at present doesn't help.

Sam sees the words between the words, he knows the way Lucifer works. It's misdirection and deceit around every corner (unless the truth is more cutting). "Have you told her what you've done?" Maybe he has. Maybe she doesn't care.

Despite Sam's dubiousness about everyone, he hasn't given Wanda nearly the same grief he'd given Geralt, and Geralt's vetted. They are somehow generally analogous in his mind and that's equally sobering considering how little leeway he's given. It's an uncomfortable situation and all Sam can do is hope that Lucifer's been deceiving Wanda, that Wanda's none the wiser to how truly awful he can be.
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[personal profile] outwear 2023-02-17 03:42 am (UTC)(link)
Similarly, Wanda has found Sam on several occasions when his defenses were low, and while he hadn't detected any kind of obvious probing, there had been more than a few uncomfortably prescient thoughts that had made Sam wonder. Even here and now he suspects that they aren't entirely shielded, like the crows will take back word anyway.

"I don't need to lie," he lies plainly (perhaps also thinking that omission is, as always, inadmissible). And he doesn't consider himself closed off (although his Arcana suggests otherwise) but still he folds tightly around himself and leans all six-and-some on a gnarled root, content enough (apparently) to share this quiet moment with an all-too-familiar face.

Sam sighs. "Is there a reason you're up there? Please, don't let me interrupt your— creeping," he says, gesturing. But he's certainly not moving on, is he?
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[personal profile] outwear 2023-02-21 03:10 am (UTC)(link)
Sam wishes he was surprised, but after a thousand acts just like, he's not anything but perturbed to find Lucifer within striking distance. He sure does love to tempt, but that's the nature of the Devil, isn't it?

"That's certainly a question," Sam agrees obtusely. There isn't any reason he needs to reveal his intentions, although now that he has the opportunity, it crosses mind to lead Lucifer on a wild goose chase. He disregards the feeling, bit only just.

"Does it matter?" he asks, but there's no part of him that wants Lucifer to be interested. He knows better — the guy's obsessed — and in asking he's only trying to bait Sam into more of this bullshit. To his credit, it works. And Sam hates it. "My reasons don't involve you."
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[personal profile] outwear 2023-02-23 03:11 am (UTC)(link)
Sam watches, feeling the shift in the surrounding wildlife. He wonders who controls the birds, Wanda or the Singularity. Whether they have a free will or if they're little more than figments. Could a person get lost in these creations? Or lose themselves? And what's their purpose? The concept feels a little too much like your own slice of heaven for Sam's tastes.

"I just needed to clear my head," he finally relents, compelled as much by loneliness as he is by spite. He didn't come here looking for Lucifer and he doesn't want him thinking for even a second that was the case. Not when he knows exactly how to get under Sam's skin.

(He's better at fighting it, he tells himself. He's getting better, at least. Like a road to recovery for any other... affliction, there's bound to be bumps in the road as it stretches ahead.)

Sam wets his lips and asks, "Why Solvunn?" Lucifer hadn't pointed it out for its color alone, so this time Sam takes the bait.
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[personal profile] outwear 2023-02-24 12:57 am (UTC)(link)
There's always that moment of uncertainty where Sam has to decide if Lucifer is telling the truth or winding him up. Maybe it's always both. The words roll out the same way, anyway, and the part that really unsettles Sam is how he's never quite disinterested enough to stop listening. Worse yet if he agrees, as if Lucifer can't be right.

Unfortunately, Sam knows otherwise. It haunts him in a way and it's moments like these that he wishes he would have brought along some company so he'd be too ashamed to engage so willingly. Jo, if anyone, because she's less likely to act. Dean probably would have blown his top by now.

"I guess some things are universal," Sam says, not wanting to agree or disagree even if it sounds plenty plausible. All he knows of Solvunn is what he's told and even that suffers without context.

Sam picks at a piece of bark, breaking off pieces and tossing them away. Diverting, he asks, "How long have you been here now?"
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[personal profile] outwear 2023-03-05 01:47 am (UTC)(link)
Sam huffs. There have been days, certainly, where they're easily old friends, just not the kind of friends that are good for each other.

"Seven months, wow. And you've settled somewhere provincial and made friends," he says, unable to keep himself from taking the opportunity for a short jab. But it certainly does highlight for Sam how Abraxas has taken out their teeth, their nails, whatever else it pleases. Never mind the supposed gifts. He almost asks Lucifer what he's been bestowed but realizes he doesn't want to know lest they have to discuss someone believing in Lucifer enough to reward him.

Clearing his throat, Sam gestures vaguely. "Did you make one of these for yourself?" And how does Sam ensure he doesn't stumble his way into it?
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[personal profile] outwear 2023-03-05 06:48 pm (UTC)(link)
Of course. Why is he even surprised? The sins of the father have always been the same, an old theme, rote in its application through all things. Lucifer helped invent the (religious) constraints of the parent/child relationship so it's unlikely he needs reminded how much it sucks, but when it's all you have, it's all you ever think about, he supposes. Sam wonders briefly if Lucifer finds reason to blame God for a split stream when the piss hits his own boot, knowing as he does that Lucifer often applies reason to others but excuses this in his own relationships. Certainly, when it came to (and still comes to) Sam, his reason has been lacking.

"Honestly? I don't trust the process. Maybe I've had a few too unwelcome visitors," Sam says, indicating his head. "So, for now? Yeah, sure, I'll suffer the discomfort of being uncreative in exchange for family and security." It's kept Lucifer out, hasn't it? So, mission accomplished.

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