abraxaslogs | Reality doesn’t always give us the life that we desire

Istredd's eyebrows furrow at him. "Wow you still really didn't think you felt that way about other people including me? Up until then?" It actually is very typical Lucifer and Istredd. Istredd overthinking and obsessing and agonizing for months, Lucifer impulsively going with what seemed like a good idea at the time.

"No wonder you had a meltdown. It was upending your entire concept of yourself and our relationship in a split second." And then when Lucifer started to overthink it, it's when he panicked. Istredd was just ahead of it because he realized sooner.

"Well, I'm glad we didn't impulsively have sex that night then." He leans their foreheads together. "Still not saying you should have knocked me out."

"You do have a habit of upending my sense of self." It's not an accusation, just an observation.

"I won't do it again." Pause. "Well, I won't do it in that circumstance." He's not going to promise anything else. Things happen, and he values Istredd's life.

Aren't you glad that I do? Istredd cups his face and tilts it up, kissing his cheek, his jaw, under until his mouth trails along Lucifer's neck. Lucifer's shirt is high necked so he hooks a finger in it to pull down and get just a little more skin out of it. He's never been so bold but testing boundaries is something Lucifer is good at. So he's adopting the ability.

I can knock you out too, you know. I know you have a special beautiful archangel mind, but you let me into it.

In a normal light he might scoff and dismiss it only because every time Lucifer's sense of self gets rocked it is not quiet. It rocks through him like a quake and knocks everything in his mind out of place and picking up the bits not shattered and returning them to where they belong is a trial he's not sure is worth it. Mostly, anyway.

But Istredd accompanying the question with kissing does nicely for derailing Lucifer's normal reaction. It's almost like this man knows him, even if this wasn't on purpose. That alone is reason enough for Istredd to be the only one that knows him to this extent, but then that reassurance wasn't really for that. Istredd knows his mind, Istredd knows his true form. While the former began as necessity, the latter is something he'd never share with someone, and he doesn't see an instance where he'd allow another person to witness it.

He offers Istredd some assistance, reaching up to undo the top clasp of his outfit and pull it back.

I wouldn't doubt your skill at being able to achieve that.

Istredd's broken him several times now, he's well aware of it. Broken down walls around him until he could sneak his way into Lucifer's heart and permanently take residence. He does know him, better than anyone because Lucifer's opened up doors to him he kept closed to others. His momentary jealousy was just that. Irrational and quick and foolish. An echo of his general insecurity, when he has every reason to be confident here.

That unclasping is as clear an invitation as he's going to get and he takes full advantage, no longer playing nice, kissing as far down as he can and then licking a clear line from there all the way back up, sucking on Lucifer's pulse point down to his collar bone. The want rolls off him but it is more than desire Istredd feels, it's the need to please.

He leans forward, having been settled all this time on his lap but not pressing closer until now. You shouldn't doubt my skill at being able to achieve anything I want. It's the most confident Istredd has ever sounded in his life, outside of when talking about monoliths.

His hands move to his chest and then he pushes Lucifer firmly back onto the bed, even if it takes him away from his mouth, although Istredd follows only seconds later. Hands on either side of his head, looking down at him. "For the record. If I could be like this with your real form, I would." Nothing but the truth. He wants Lucifer. Lucifer as a being, not as a body. He knows that Lucifer struggles with image, with being stuck in this form. He found that beautiful creature Lucifer showed him attractive too. It's a very specific type of interest.

"But I'm fairly certain you said a human would die just looking." And he is only a human, if a supernaturally old and powerful one. He smiles. "I just wanted to be clear it's you."

A laugh. Who's spread the lies that I'd have any doubts like that? Certainly not me. But the level of confidence is impressive. They bring out the worst in each other sometimes; just about anyone can bring the worst out of Lucifer.

They do, however, also bring out the best in each other. That Lucifer has a best is... interesting. Something new. Or rather, something that has been buried for a very, very, near-infinite time.

And Istredd, of course, coming in strong and blipping Lucifer's thoughts. Blanked for a few seconds as he blinks up at him.

"You would definitely die," he says slowly, knowing he needs to say something before Istredd loses this flare of confidence, but Lucifer honestly wasn't expecting the comment. "Or at least have your eyes burned out of your skull, and that'd be a cryin' shame." Even Lucifer can recognize that Istredd's eyes are the best physical aspect about him. He'd hate to lose them.

It takes a moment for him to kickstart his mind again. Actual effort. There's multiple free-flowing thoughts there that hadn't been before, one particular new strand he hadn't even been realized as missing, the rest unrecognized or so much as noticed by Lucifer. Gossamer, silver threads of thought stretched across in motion as though through water. The way that Lucifer's mind is more often imagery and color as much as emotion.

He knows Istredd was attracted to his mind; he said as much, said it was what he... fell in love with first. But this, this vessel, it's as similar to a hand-me-down.

Lucifer didn't choose this the last time. Nick didn't choose this the last time. They both were forced into this arrangement and while Nick is gone, no soul to make the space seem smaller, it still feels like this body doesn't fit right sometimes. Like an itch he can't reach, a piece of clothing out of place, a loose hair you can't catch. What Crowley did to this vessel permanently changed him.

And sure, he's aware there's an attractiveness to this suit and the way he wears it but--but Istredd does know that form, didn't flinch from it, doesn't have any nightmares haunting him from it. He knew Istredd accepted it but--

But wanting it was another story.

"Get--" He's got Istredd's tie around his neck that means he loses the easy handhold, so he settles for wrinkling the smooth shirt, twisting his hand into the black and bodily dragging Istredd back down to him. Get down here.

It's because Istredd knows him that he makes that comment. He knows he struggles with the form, he's told him before, it is why Istredd asked to see it in the first place. This is the body he has to live in, and Istredd obviously desires it, he's never pretended otherwise since this started. It's just that he has always been someone more attracted to the person than the way they look. He loved Yennefer exactly as she was, her being aesthetically perfect never mattered to him.

He thinks it's important for Lucifer to know the truth and to understand the extent of Istredd's love for him. This is all new to him, every second between them is new. "Strange way of saying you like my eyes." It is a gentle tease, letting Lucifer react to what he said without any pressure. He waits on top of him too, patient, having told him once already that anything they did needed an enthusiastic yes.

Istredd doesn't even protest or care that Lucifer is wrinkling his new shirt, he immediately goes down with the tug and kisses Lucifer with the kind of heat he's been holding back. It has all been testing the waters and getting nice moments of romance and intimacy, but he considers this an opening to kiss him the way he's really wanted. Hungry and needy, exploring Lucifer's mouth.

He moves so that he's no longer straddling Lucifer, as nice as that is, to more directly slide on top of him, between his legs, not unlike how Lucifer did himself that first night. Istredd sits up partially so he can try and run his hand over Lucifer's shirt and try to undo it. To get it off he'd have to stop kissing him so he simply runs his fingers underneath to feel his skin.

As much as he is currently mindlessly collapsing into hazy desire though, Istredd finally lets them come up for air only to kiss his neck again, but this is where having a bond is helpful. Conversation always possible. If you want to stop at any time you can tell me. He doesn't want any confusion to worry him.

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I'll let you know, he confirms. No panic tapping Istredd out. He promised that much, he'd hold to it. At the moment he doesn't see a break-off point, but he doesn't know this body. Doesn't know where one nerve ends and another begins, doesn't know what might just overwhelm all aspects that are part of him. Jeff's form was hardly oversensitive, but he was in a regular relationship.

It's been awhile for this form, and what might be just fine for Lucifer might not fly so well for his skin.

Vessels make everything complicated, it'd make his life so much easier if he could do this in his true form. But aside from burning out Istredd's very attractive eyes, if he could actually shirk this vessel he'd probably destroy it permanently and not be able to be contained nor would he be a Reasonable Size.

But that's neither here nor there. Things he can't achieve, it's fine. He'll cope, or he won't.

He meets Istredd with the same fire, finally getting more than just the taste from the start of the night, finally leaning into the play he made with their dance. He didn't think he needed it. This whole perfectly-fit clothing comes with problems, Istredd, and I don't only mean how good it looked.

If he ruins Natasha's fine work she is going to find a way to murder him. But simply popping the buttons of Istredd's vest open he knows losing a few layers isn't going to be easy. And this is from Lucifer, who is nicely bound in the tight outfit. But he bought this.

No one's going to kill him if he ruins it and it'll be worth it.

They've talked about Lucifer's lack of experience and there is trust between them. Trust that Lucifer will know if it's too much and trust that Istredd will stop the moment he asks him. Although he'd love it if that doesn't end up needing to be a problem because getting to kiss him like this is a dream. After them getting spicy on the dance floor, he's been hoping for this. His heart is pounding and his breath is coming a little quicker.

He groans when Lucifer points out the obvious, that they'd have to start tearing clothes if they wanted to get them off quickly enough. Logically, it's more romantic if they put caution to the wind and do exactly that. Istredd feels in the throes of passion enough that he would have done that if Natasha hadn't been kind and picked it out.

He partially sits up which he's very grumpy about and he digs his fingers into Lucifer's shirt, tugging him up. He doesn't have to go far to have the space to do the next part. "Take it off." It also would be more romantic to be the one doing it, but their clothes are tight and they both already put themselves into it, getting out will go faster this way.

Istredd obviously is not going to care about folding the vest or shirt at this point though. He tosses the vest behind him and humorously forgets to get the cuffs before trying to shrug out of his shirt, so he has to fix that first. It's not the most graceful thing he's ever done but it gets him bare-chested quickly. He wants to feel Lucifer's skin beneath his fingertips and let Lucifer soak in his body warmth.

This is not the first time they've been underdressed around each other, being roommates and in each other's pockets most of the time, but there is a difference in context. And setting. "What did you call it? Conversation through motion?" Dancing, fighting, or this.

He nearly cackles at Istredd's grumpiness. He's only looking out for you, Istredd. You want to deal with redheaded-wrath? Be his guest, but Lucifer will make the effort in trying to prevent that.

Lucifer may be on uneven footing here, but he's gotten past the placeholder issues, and the identity issues, and various other uncertainties clogging up his thoughts along with the static he had at the beginning of the month.

Fortunately (or unfortunately) then, he will always be himself.

"So demanding," he quips, the amusement game strong in him, and the beginning trills of pleasure from Istredd's comment. He hardly needs romance. His amusement does come back to bite him some though because there are several clasps to his outfit, and the gloves and their buckles have to come off as well for him to even consider removing his top, followed by the thin undershirt that kept the top from chafing.

And this wasn't excessive for the clothing options he could have taken!

He still achieves better speed than Istredd, and he enjoys the man playing catchup.

"Look at that," he says with a laugh, which frankly shouldn't be funny for the words that follow, "we're both graceless now." (He's got some grace, but not the point.)

He snaps off Istredd's tie from his neck, loops it behind Istredd's, and absolutely soaks in Istredd's furnace. And a rebellion. Don't forget the rebellion part. That is very important to me. That this, too, really is a rebellion. Because this they certainly weren't allowed.

Istredd doesn't want to rip it, he is supposed to be wearing this more than once, and it would be rude, but he is in a hurry to say the least. He has been fantasizing about this for a long time and while he will stop at any time, every step forward is feeding that in him. It's better in reality. There is nothing better to him in this moment than Lucifer under him, also eagerly taking off his shirt(s).

"It won't be the last time." He is demanding, that is. Istredd may be a fairly quiet and level person most of the time, but this is where he stores a lot of his passion. It's why he desires people who meet that head on. He wants and he wants and he wants, as Lucifer can feel radiating out of him now.

He laughs and runs his hands up Lucifer's bare chest now, very happy to feel his skin and be lacking a layer(s) between them. His hands are hot as is the rest of him, a furnace indeed, flushed all over. You've definitely inspired me to be rebellious. Lucifer is a rebel through and through and it is something he's proud about, but Istredd has been in his own ways. He did push back against the Brotherhood frequently. Whatever this is, it's about nothing more than them. Everything else might as well not exist to him.

He pushes Lucifer onto his back again and follows immediately, kissing him again with teeth as well as tongue, knowing they both seem to like the wildness of this more than anything sweet. They can be sweet later. He pushes down on top of him and rocks against him with clear intent, reveling in everywhere they're touching. His excitement becomes evident from the friction he's intentionally causing, and their tight pants might be the next problem.

But now that he has so much of Lucifer to explore he never got to before, his hot mouth moves down his neck again and this time keeps going, covering his chest with kisses and light sucks. Tell me you want me. This is not like his first shaky question that night, nervous and shy.

"Good," he answers, startled that he means it. In other circumstances, other potential multiversal of people, he'd deny it. But because Istredd is so rarely this level of vocal, Lucifer only offers encouragement. "I know I've inspired other things, too," he croons, up until his breath hitches with a startled, annoyed, amused confusion.

So increasing levels of It's Complicated that he's just going to roll with, but also owed an explanation because the last thing he needs is Istredd being concerned without Lucifer actually slamming on the breaks.

Point of order: last person I slept with was with a different vessel entirely. Same number of limbs. Way different... everything else. Again, that's not a denial, Istredd. It's like a lottery.

Istredd might not know lotteries.

Lucifer does not infodump about lotteries while shifting his hips to meet Istredd. You're welcome.

Conversation in motion. Lucifer does know how to dance.

"I want you," he responds aloud, so that it resonates through his vocal chords and matches in sync through the thoughts in their skulls.

"Oh you're very inspiring," Istredd says on a breathless laugh. He does glance up at the strange mix of feelings that are coming out of him. He is glad that Lucifer doesn't have to pace around in order to explain this time because he has no intentions of moving. It is so interesting to be in this situation where Lucier simply doesn't know how his body is reacting. It's thrilling to be his first.

Let me help you break this body in then. Istredd smiles from where he is currently interested in covering every inch of Lucifer's chest and torso with his mouth. You're safe with me, Lucifer. Everyone goes through this the first time. Istredd doesn't want him to worry about what he is or isn't doing right here, or that he needs to have excuses for any of it. He gets it. The point of order has been accepted and approved. He gets dealing with vessels is more complicated than the typical virginal situation.

Istredd gets a surge of pleasure just hearing those words from Lucifer's mouth and while he normally would continue the obvious path downward, he is hearing that all of this is intensely new. So his mouth travels upward instead although he does nip very lightly at the curve of Lucifer's neck. He seems comfortable with them moving against each other, so that can be a good place to stay.

The next time he rocks their hips together, the friction causes him to gasp, hard underneath his tight pants, and he sucks the skin right under Lucifer's ear as he continues this dance of theirs. Are you comfortable losing the pants? Still determined to ask, be careful and considerate.

I dare you to break it, he sings.

He smooths a hand into the back pocket of Istredd's pants, encouragement if anything.

He's done pacing. He's vibing enough from their dance that his 'openness' fuel tank is full and his vulnerability levels are empty. Lucifer's settled into the fact that he's going to be vulnerable in this situation. But it's nearly always Istredd seeing him the most carved open, and it's because it's continually Istredd that he allows the vulnerability, allows the weakness.

Istredd's had Lucifer's skin under his hands before. That wound cleaning in itself should have left Lucifer more exposed than this, and he's still alive, still mentally kicking.

More uncomfortable keeping them on, he all-but growls, thoughts vibrating with the intensity.

That's likely fine. Nothing to worry about. He was in full-power last time and there were no uncontained problems. Surely running on empty as he is will be fine. Right?

Hopefully there's no additional cleaning fee slapped onto their room charge, is all.

He slips his other hand down between them. Istredd's a bit easier to unbutton than his own pants, and it offers the 'delicate' pass of knuckles. Whoops, sorry/not sorry.

I don't know if you can handle it, Istredd sings back. Is he challenging him a little bit to make this easier? That if Lucifer can make it more of a proving himself situation, he might get out of his head? Either way, he is happy to take this however works for him.

It didn't strike Istredd until later that it had been a big deal for Lucifer to let him tend his wounds. He knows now how hard vulnerability is for him, and he'd been attacked, damaged. It may be their trust extended earlier than either of them expected. That gentle display of care laid the groundwork for this.

His breath catches and he shudders at the 'graze,' eyes fluttering closed for that brief second. Istredd can't help but lean into the touch, his body unconscious wanting more. He shakes his head to try and clear it and moves off him, his stripping even faster this time around, despite those pants really being tighter than he thought. He kicks off the last of his layers and turns back to Lucifer.

"I changed my mind, I hate these clothes." Istredd smiles at him to put him at ease and runs his hands down Lucifer's torso to work on peeling them off him. Lift your hips. His touches are gentle now, caresses, knowing how vulnerable this all is to be laid bare under Istredd's hands and eyes.

Those pretty eyes that Lucifer wouldn't want to burn out of his skull.

Istredd already said he found Lucifer's actual form attractive, and it's true, but this vessel is so appealing to him too. Once there is not a single stitch of clothes between them he moves (very gracefully this time) back on top of Lucifer and slowly lowers himself down so they're fully pressed up against each other now. Still with me?

Won't that be interesting to find out? he hums, another pass of his hand, thumb twisting just so.

He likely wouldn't be so keen to follow instructions further down the road, but the 'safety' and trust is strong enough that he defaults to Istredd's assurances. Because despite his dare for Istredd to break-in this body, he could very well break Istredd if he isn't careful to an extent. The healers of Hayle do not need that late at night.

He's already pressing lips to a shoulder the moment Istredd's back in his hands, both their banquet outfits fully in a couple haphazard piles. He breaks away only to make eye contact.

Lucifer may just get out of one portion of his head. The complex, grace-deprived, closer-to-human thoughts. That is good for them both.

But he won't leave his head entirely. That angelic, alien entity will always be his primarily, no matter how watered down it is. And that part of his head is very, very present.

In the sense you need me to be, he starts through thoughts, and finishes, "yes." But I could get lost in the breakdown of this. It's quite fascinating now that I have the time to process it. Just a simple... He kneads the heel of his kept-low palm against Istredd, giving him the touch he craves. Still a mild chill to it despite their activities, his eyes not breaking contact from Istredd's own, interested, drinking in and absorbing the reactions. ... Elicits a response. Sensitive nerves and sensitive minds, convoluted and crossed, not even the mind and body trying to find balance, just... mess.

He folds his legs behind Istredd's, maybe learned, maybe some instinct from that complicated 'mind and body' babble, and repeats, strikingly fond, Just mess. That he doesn't seem to have any particular problem with.

Istredd doesn't know the full extent of Lucifer's strength and power. He knows it exists, he knows that he is far from human even in this vessel, but the danger in this situation is not something he has considered. And frankly he has no intention of considering. Nothing is going to stop him outside of Lucifer asking him not to. There are worse ways to die.

"Fuck," Istredd moans when Lucifer keeps touching him, rubbing against him. He moves against him in a natural way, a slow and steady rock of his hips down, pressing Lucifer into the mattress. He really doesn't ordinarily swear this much, if there ever was a good time. He is very expressive here, not holding back as he grits his teeth. His lust is so clearly tumbling over the line to choke them both.

I like your way of talking dirty. His amusement is threaded into desire. Never will their joking be put entirely to rest. It's always been a risk you could break me, I took that on willingly. Eagerly. From the first time he entered Lucifer's mind, it was a possibility. He didn't hesitate and he wouldn't now. Not when he has been straight up watching him with lovestruck eyes for a long time. "All I want is to please you, Lucifer."

His teeth dig into Lucifer's neck and down, sucking very carefully on a nipple, since it is a brand new situation and set of feelings. He sinks further on the bed, just sliding easily between Lucifer's legs. It isn't until his mouth is at his stomach that he glances up at him again from this position.

"Can your mess handle my mouth or is it too much?" It is intense for anyone and he knows that, but he is so hungry for it. Istredd understands this is a lot but what he wants more than anything is to have Lucifer fall apart. Break. Tumble into a pleasure he's never really known before. A hand curls down to cup his thigh, caressing the skin there. No more pressure than that, he isn't trying to use his attraction against him for persuasion.

Don't let it go too much to your head, he groans, but you do that simply by existing in my presence.

... Most times, anyway. There are definitely times Lucifer wants to ring his neck, and not in an appealing way. And it should still go to the idiot's head.

His hips buck involuntary the lower Istredd goes, his thoughts for the first time becoming fuzzy. Distracted. Highly distracted. He usually shifts so frequently back and forth between thoughts and speaking and he's having more trouble with one more than the other.

There's a loose power about him, dribbling out and around and back through mostly unnoticed by Lucifer like a leaking helium balloon. Just a subtle shift in air currents. That might not be able to handle it. The part of him that recognizes it surely doesn't care.

Istredd. It's close a whine. Words, he needs words. He's all about words. Won't know until we find out.

Sorry, impossible not to let that go to my head. Istredd lets that wash over him and he soaks it in greedily. He shares between their bond that it's mutual, no question about it, he has been fulfilled by every moment they are together. But he is still very smug for a moment there.

The hips bucking up tell him that Lucifer's body at least is interested in him continuing but bodies are much more desperate than minds. Istredd does lean down and delicately kisses the thigh he has curled in his hand, so close to him. The soft skin on the inside is sucked on, knowing he is being very persuasive whether or not Lucifer is ready. He is barely an inch away from really touching him.

We'll take it slow. He is reassuring. Yes he could immediately drive Lucier wild and be cruel about it, but it's better to let him adjust as they go. Istredd considers that an invitation so he nuzzles his nose along Lucifer's hard flesh, caressing his tongue from base to tip. It's been some time since he did this last, but it's muscle memory.

Put your hand in my hair. See, demanding. He is the experienced one of the two of them and assured Lucifer he could lead him through this. He sucks very gently at the sensitive top and then envelops it entirely with his mouth, simply holding it there for now so Lucifer can adjust to the heat.

Istredd's welcome to the compliment. See, Lucifer can be nice sometimes. It's just in rare, small doses.

The response that follows is a mangled sputtered string of Enochian, untranslated.

He does get a hand to Istredd's head, nearly talon-like in the way his fingers splay and his nails twist in through hair to scalp.

Lord.

Isn't nice that in normal circumstances you'd be shut up in this situation but you've got your thoughts wide open with me. It might just be those open thoughts that make Lucifer grit his teeth more than the ministrations but honestly given who they both are that is what makes the most sense. You ever consider bringing this level of confidence to your day to day life? Would really help you out.

For all his litany he is hyper-aware. He wants to pay attention to each aspect. See the domino effect. One action lead to another, split the path, continue on. He can't. His mind's falling to the whim of this body.

Slow is going to equally kill me, Istredd, you know that, right.

Istredd laughs mentally because he can tell the divide between Lucifer's desperate attempts to chase the intense feelings while also not giving into it won't last. He is confident here because Istredd is great at reading people in an intimate setting. He's intuitive. He's receptive. He gives without reserve. His telempathy gives him an unfair advantage over knowing what feels best, what someone truly wants.

Amusement dances along with desire and love and he likes that they remain playful and snarky even in the middle of this. In truth, Istredd likes taking it slow; he'd love to wring Lucifer dry, he'd enjoy driving him to the brink until he can't handle it. But this is his first time and Lucifer isn't comfortable in this body yet. He can stand to be merciful.

Blue eyes roll up to look at him. Well, if you insist, we can make this quick.

That is the only warning he's going to get. Istredd wraps a hand around him to hold him steady and stops playing nice. His head lowers and rises, taking him deeper each time, tightening his lips at the tip every time, covering as much of him as possible with wet heat. The slicker it gets the more his hand starts to move on him, spurring him on, adding extra strokes of pleasure on top of his mouth and wicked tongue.

He knows that Lucifer is not used to this much sensation at once and that was why he planned on easing him into it, but fine. If he wants to be impatient, Istredd is more than happy to bring him there as intense and passionate as possible. Lucifer, he purrs his name in his head, moaning around him.

On top of the physical Istredd covers him in all the mental feelings he's been drunk on since this started. Love, lust, desire, adoration, need, pleasure, he circles it around Lucifer's mind and sets it off like a powerful bomb of positive reinforcement and something gentler than worship. Be mine.

You-- He did, in fact, ask for this. Not that he's upset by any means, but ask and he shall receive. His mind maybe checks out for a few moments too many, fine on any other day, any other vessel, any other level of his grace reserves and control.

It's like misplacing a nuke, though lucky this one's currently, mostly, a dud.

When he checks back in he's unconcerned, one hand still marking up Istredd's head, the other wrapping around one of his wrists, not at all restricting his movements--following, even--but very much keying into a heartbeat, resonating it through them in a rocky, heady loop. An archangel shouldn't get high on life, the force and presence of it, but he's always been the abnormal one.

I'm already yours, try to keep up, would you-- the messy tumbled response falls away partway through, a distant ping in Lucifer's own blurry senses, an understanding about himself, missing the signs, or the absence, or, or...

Ah, fuck.

"Oh," drags out of Lucifer's mouth in a warble, hand clapped rudely to the back of Istredd's head now, pushing, holding, his hips jerking, "hell," follows in time with a sudden up-swelled chime droning through the air and the shattering of all the fancy, expensive, decorative glassware in the room.

Found the nuke.

Be mine is on a few levels. He has Lucifer's mind, he has his heart, but now he wants his body. Istredd has been greedy from the start, he wants to consume Lucifer until every part of him is possessed. He won't be satisfied until the physical is too. He wants Lucifer's mindless pleasure, he wants him unable to think of anything but Istredd.

The grip on his hair is more of a clinging and as long as the hand on his wrist isn't restricting, he allows it. Mine, he growls, soaking in Lucifer's lust, encouraging him to push, to jerk and lose composure entirely searching for that bliss. It may not be wise but he only grips him tighter, stimulates him with less mercy than ever. His mouth and hand don't stop, they are relentless until it seems clear he will get his prize.

He envelopes him entirely when he knows it's about to be done, cheeks hollowed out, holding him tight. He is completely enraptured by what they're doing that in that first second, he doesn't realize what is happening. Istredd's instinct, despite what they're doing, being in the throes of passion, is to immediately shield them as he hears everything shatter around them. Neither of them want glass shards on them. Even while taking him in, swallowing in satisfaction, he protects.

Istredd waits for Lucifer but as soon as he seems capable of thought, he pulls away and glances around. Everything breakable is shattered beyond repair. Tiny pieces. He should be looking at horror but he is still turned on and frankly, this only makes him laugh. Laughs mindlessly, mixed in the chaos, his heart pounding and licking his lips.

"That's a first." Smug, smug, smug.

Shaddup. He's already gathering Istredd into his arms--partially out of rapidly becoming cool, partially because he doesn't know what to do with his hands now--despite the difficulty of it. Awkward angles and long limbs and Lucifer's catching-up breaths.

Istredd's lucky with how much Lucifer likes him that he lets him have his smugness instead of shoving it all under the shard-covered rug. Though there is a level of impressiveness at the fact Istredd was still able to throw up a shield. He'd have used his wings if he hadn't been so out of it.

You know we're likely going to have to pay for that?

We. They're both at fault. Istredd may as well have lit the fuse.

But you clearly need better partners if that's a first.

And Lucifer clearly needs to come to terms with a new issue. Well. Not new. It was there the first time they joined minds, but he had enough cognizance to stop it. It really only makes sense that it'd be ringing there the first time they joined bodies and that he wasn't able to stop it this time, under the circumstances.

The shards are a later problem.

He drops his mental voice low, warm. His oversensitivity hasn't faded and he's highly charged up despite the escape of power. What do you need?

Istredd lets himself be pulled into Lucifer's arms and he probably will never stop loving that he is so affectionate when they're in bed. In general he allows Istredd so much leeway to touch him, but sleeping together is another level entirely. He gets the aftermath is intense if a bit of a relief, so he kisses his cheek sweetly, his forehead.

No chance we can argue that it just happened and we don't know why? But he's still laughing and won't argue that the consequences are half his. I did warn you. He was going to be careful! Istredd is in no way sorry, not an ounce of regret in their bond.

"We'll put an extra shield up in our room." They didn't think to do it here. Istredd didn't expect this, although now he thinks he should have possibly. Their room at Thorne is already near unbreakable so Lucifer could let loose without fear once they're back. Istredd isn't going to stop trying to blow his mind. This is only the beginning.

He'd been so focused on the glass and Lucifer coming down from it to worry too much about his own pleasure. The question reminds him and he is blatantly aware now of how much it needs relief too. Istredd considers and then moves onto his back, reaching out to drag Lucifer closer to him.

He uses the mixed saliva and fluids from Lucifer to stroke himself this time, making it smoother. Touch me. Istredd looks at him, eyes fixed on his face. Tell me you want me. This time it is less of a demand and more of a plea. Yes he gets turned on by confirmation of Lucifer's claim on him.

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nsfw here on out probably let's just slap that there now jic

added to warnings above too teehee

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